It all started when I was nine
When your eyes met mine
My throat went dry
And my heart skipped a beat
Fast forward to age 12
When I saw you in a suit
Dancing onstage with girl not your height
We joked about how you'd have to wear heels
And then when my heart started to fly
When I'd see you my heart stopped and when you spoke my mind knocked
I couldn't say anything in the car but nervously pick at my nails and bit the dead skin off my lip.
You made me nervous, you made me afraid
Maybe that's why I love you this way.
Jump ahead I saw you again
In a new suit and a new name
I would hear you sing and my lips would part slightly and curve, to form a smile.
I didn't think about losing you, I didn't think it'd come so fast
But there I was
Stuck between love and lust
Being stuck between those usually isn't so bad
But between being in pain and telling you
I don't think I wanna play this game
Not saying a word, with some regret
I cared, let me say again sir
I care for you and I believe I always will.
I read stories about girls who get the guy they love
I'll read the page and close the book when I'm done
I stare at my ceilings and imagine the scenes but with me and you instead
Sitting at a diner in Paris not at home in my bed
I'd open my eyes and see nothing but white
But always remember, I care from evening to night
