idk what's wrong with me
i can never make decisions and shit and it stresses me out to no end
like i wanna buy cute clothes but it feels like i do but i still don't look cute
and like i want this cute t shirt but then i feel like even if i buy this i won't look cute
and like ill make a decision like lemme go to the mall but then do i really wanna buy this?? and i hate making my mom take my places cause im taking advantage of her she's too sweet to say no but she already does too much for me
and i want to be the force to bring my friends together but i also don't want to force them?
i am shit.
one second ill tell myself i don't care if i gain weight it doesn't matter, but then the next ill be so mad at myself for eating at all.
one second ill pretend im some powerful lesbian who doesn't care about my image and the next ill see myself in the mirror and wish i died that night.
Guess I'll just live like this forever.
