When i had you

You lost me (datoka pov)

I walked back to my room to get ready for the party, I got out my geek croptop and put it on, I than went to my jeans drawer and found skinny jeans with a pattern in the sides I tugged them on. I looked under my bed for my hight tops with secret heels.

found them! I cheered to myself. I pulled them out and slipped them on and stood up I walked out of my room and into the bathroom. I and put on my sliver eyeshadow. With black I eyeliner, with black mascara. I put on me kola bear neckless and grabbed Carries tomboy neckless, and walked to her room seeing her sitting next to Michael with her bass in her hands. She looked at me and smiled.

What do you need Kota? she asked.

Here. I told her putting my hand out in front of me. She smiled bigger and gave her bass to Michael, and walked to me and toke the neckless and put it on. I walked out and into the bathroom. I put my long black hair in a fish bride I smiled when I felt, a pair of arms around me. I turned in his arms and put mine around his neck.

You look amazing as always. he told me. I felt me cheeks burn. And the smile I had got bigger. he started leaning when Katie walked in.

Oh sorry. She said. I grabbed ash's hands and toke him to my room. I sat on my bed and ashton walked up to me and keeled down in between my legs and looked in my eyes. I looked away. I never could look into his eyes I was always scared to and I never knew why.

Why do you always look a way. look at me once. he said calmly, and toke two fingers to move my head to where he was, he was making me look at him. I stared in his eyes. One thing I liked about his eyes is that they were hazel. meaning they could be green sometimes and brown other times. my eyes are green. I kept staring into his eyes when out of nowhere he kisses me. I kissed back. in this kiss I knew he still had the passion I had for him. you see I never stop loving ashton but when he left me I just simply lost faith that he loved me. my mother used to tell me no one would ever love you, you were a mistake and that's all you'll ever be. When my brother was born I thought it was going to be the same. but no he was a king when he was born. If it wasn't for my aunt lily I don't think I would have lived. she has cancer and lives in the hospital now. but I visit her all the time. when he pulled away i came back I didn't want it to end. I sat on his lap and kissed him. He warped his arms around my waist, and pulled me closer. I pulled away. And looked up into his hazel eyes. I got up from his lap.

Come on we have too go. I said he stood up a peck my lips. We walk out of my room and into the hall way. Ash walked in front of me and grabbed my hands and kneeled on one knee.

Kota will you be my girlfriend again? I promise never to hurt you again and where ever I go I want you right beside me. he asked. I smiled and nodded my head yes he stood up and I kissed him.

Awwwww! I heard Michael say.

Shut up. I smiled.

That was really cute guys. Carrie said. now come on we have to go the party!! she cheered jumping up and down. I nodded and pulled Carrie in my room.

No drinking! I told her.

I know. I know. she said.

I mean it Carrie! no drinking for you! I told her.

Understand. she said.

Promise? I asked.

Promise. she said. I smiled and walked out with her.

.....

Two hours later I lost the girls and the guys and it was getting close too 3:00am. Looked everywhere. I saw Michael. I walked up to him.

Kota have you seen Carrie? he asked more like yelled.

No! I yelled. do you know where Luke and Katie is? I asked.

They went home!! he yelled. I nodded.

Hey guys! Carrie said walking over to us.

Are you drunk? I asked.

Yeah. but don't tell Dakota, I promised her I wouldn't get drunk. she giggled.

Come on let's get you home. I said. Michael take my keys when you fine ashton. take him home. I said handing him my keys. He nodded walking off to fine ash. I dragged Carrie out to the car. I put her in the back sit. I turn around to get to the diver sit. I saw ashton kissing another girl. I froze. I just got in the car and speed away.

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Ashton pov

I woke up with a headache. I sat up to look around the room. it wasn't Kota's room. I've never really seen this room before? than all the memories came running back. fuck, fuck, fuck!

Oh hi ashton! you must have really bad headache! she said walking in the door.

Penelope. I said. she smirked. I didn't say anything Else I walked out and I walked to the girl's house. I knocked on the door, and Katie answered. as soon as she saw it was me she rolled her eyes and started closing the door. I guess they knew. I stopped the door. Katie! let me in! I need to see her! I yelled.

Go fuck Penelope again! I'm sure she'll love that! she yelled at me.

Please Katie! I begged.

No! you like every other guy breaking girls hearts for the fun of it! she yelled again!

Kat...let him in. I heard Kota say. Katie sighed and opened the door. I saw my Dakota with red puffy eyes make up steaming down her beautiful face. I walked up to her and warped her around my arms. fuck you! Kota said pushing out of the hug.

Kota I'm...I started to say.

I don't wanna fucken hear your sorry, ashton! Your a fucking bitch! she yelled in my face.

Kota I was drunk! I didn't know what I was doing! I told her.

No! even when your drunk you know what's happening! there's no fucking excuse to this! she yelled.

Kota plaese I love you and only you! I tried. she didn't look at me. nows my chance. I walked up to her. I kissed her shoulder, than her neck, her cheek, her nose, her forehead. I was about to kiss her lips.

You can't just kiss this away, ashton! you may have been drunk and sure you didn't you know what your doing. but it doesn't make this ok. ashton, every time I think of you now I see her. I see you kissing her. I see you holding her hand! you can't fix this! this can't be fixed! ashton, I love you but I can't love you if all your going to do is hurt me! She said.

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Dakota's pov.

But Kota I love you, and I just got I you back. I can't lose you. he said.

Get the fuck out of my house I don't want to see right now! I yelled. he looked hurt but started walking to the door, he than stop once he reached to door. I'm not giving up on...I will fight for you until my last breath. he said, and than walked out the door. when he left I fell on the floor crying. Michael picked my up and took me to the room. and laid me on the bed, I was still crying. Mikey laid down and pulled me into him, cuddled into his chest.