Pretending// Jamona Fanfiction

Chapter 11

Senior year was finally coming to a close, and we had had just 2 weeks before graduation and everyone was waiting on Jackson's decision. He had offers from colleges recruiting him to play football and he had a day left to decide, "Typical Jackson" i thought to myself. He had 2 options he was really considering, he could go to Alabama where Anna was going or he could attend Clemson, where I planned on attending next fall. I didn't see it as choosing between us, because I knew we'd still be best friends either way, because remember when he was dating Ashley and we had the patch where we didn't talk or hangout? Well after that we made a pact to stay close friends no matter what, so i never thought losing him was an option, at least up until later that night i thought so.

The grenade i mentioned earlier finally blew up later that night. I was walking past his room on
my way to bed when I heard him talking with Anna, so i decided to eavesdrop on their conversation because why not? The next words I heard though rocked my world. "Yes, if you really want me to I'll pick Alabama" I heard him start. Anna said something I couldn't make out but she didn't seem happy. As I listened harder I heard Jackson reply "No I would never choose Ramona over you, our relationship means way more to me than staying friends with her, so if you want me to cut her out I will" And all the sudden I couldn't breathe. My world stopped and my heart broke. I had hoped for a relationship with Jackson possibly one day but I was fine being best friends if he was in love with Anna. In my shock I must have accidentally hit his door just enough to where it opened because next thing I knew my tear stained face was staring back at their shocked faces. "Ramona wa-" was the last thing I heard as I slammed his door. I didn't need to hear his reasoning or anything else from him after him being able to drop me so quickly. I didn't speak to him or look his direction for the last 2 weeks of school, at graduation, or for 3/4 of the summer. I didn't even go to his signing day  when he signed with Alabama, why should I? Don't only your friends and family go to that? And apparently I was neither so why go? My only source of comfort in those awful weeks was talking to Lola. Luckily she was going to Clemson with me, so I knew I'd make it through this rough patch with her by my side.

Surprisingly enough I got a text from Jackson a week before he was supposed to leave for Alabama. I checked my phone.

(209)-555-0971: Hey meet me under our tree for a picnic tomorrow around noon? I can understand if you don't want to, but we really need to talk. Let me know when you decide -J

I had deleted his number after our little fiasco but of course being me, over the years I had memorized it so I knew it was his. I was very unsure why he would suggest this so out of the blue, so I decided to think on it and get back to him later. But before I even had the chance to put my phone down I got a call, from none other than Anna. "Hello?" I questioned, having no clue why she would call me of all people.

"I need to apologize and explain myself" she answered. That was the last thing I expected to come out of her mouth, but I was intrigued so I let her continue. "The night you overheard our conversation, I'm not gonna lie I was a little mad and a little jealous of you all at the same time. And it's not because you're a bad person at all, it was just because of Jackson if I'm being honest. In the first month of our relationship things were great, but then as I got to know him better I noticed how often I caught him staring at you when you weren't looking, or how his eyes would light up a little more when he saw you, or the slight change in his tone of voice when he spoke to you. Just small things I wasn't getting from him as his own girlfriend and that hurt me a little and made me  jealous. I felt like he was slowly falling more in love with you and there was nothing I could do to stop from being hurt, so thats why I did what I did that night and made him choose. Ive honestly regretted it every moment since so you have to know that I'm so sorry, like so deeply sorry. And you may never want to speak to me again but I just hope that we can be good friends one day, because I really did like you, and now I won't have to worry about Jackson anymore." I finally said something for the first time in this whole conversation.