i know i'll never love someone truly, or if i do, they'll never love me back. it hurts... that i know i can't feel warmth in my body when i think of someone, a someone that will make my heart soar.
it pains me, and even though i date, i never feel a connection anymore, i'm numb and i'm oblivious to the love that i receive.
knowing this i try. i try to feel the warmth i'm supposed to have, but the only warmth i have is sitting by the dying fire, or watching television while huddled in blankets. i can never truly love someone, and when i feel a connection, it's never possible.
i know. i cant love. i can't feel emotional warmth. but i the emotional feeling i do receive, and recognize, is pain, and anguish, and remorse. i cant love. not anymore. i thought i did. but... i can't. i'm an impossibility that happened.
you might ask, am i a sociopath? no, no i am not. and i know this for a fact. do i have mental problems? maybe... it's always a possibility.
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honestly i hate how this turned out, it wasn't poetic, or powerful at all. but what the hell do i know. tell me of you like this, maybe i'll make more, or maybe i'll take this down later.
~~Mors out~~
