If I Get My Way || Alerrie

Chapter 21

After what it felt hours I made it to the airport, I didn't live close to the airport and with the London traffic, it was even worst. When I got in I immediately looked for the screens with all the schedule, there was only one flight to LA and it was leaving in half an hour, I tried to call him a lot of times, but he didn't pick up. Time was running out and I knew where he should be so after buying a ticket I run to the waiting room praying he would still be there. After crashing with lots of people while I was running I found the place I was looking for and started to look around the waiting room for him, but he was nowhere to be found, in fact, there was no one there, the door to the plain was closed and that could only mean one thing... it was too late. My heart started to hurt, I had lost him, and this time was for real. I sat in one of the many chairs in the room, I could feel the tears rolling down my eyes, so I hide my face between my hands with my knees supporting my elbows.

My phone started to ring, and a little hope grow in me thinking it could be Alex but when I saw my phone I saw Jade was the one calling me I doubt in answering her, but she was the only one who could make me feel a little better

-What's up Jade?- I said sobbing

-Please tell me you're crying of happiness- I smiled a little

-I'm afraid not, I was too late- the tears started to come all over again, and I was getting problems to talk

-What? You didn't even saw him?- she sounded very surprised and that confused me a little

-No, I'm gonna go back home Jade, see you in a while, bye-

-Bye- she said, and I hang up before sobbing and returning to the position I was before picking up my phone. When I was about to stand up I felt a hand on my back rubbing circles

-How can you still look so pretty when you are crying?- I was in shock when I heard his voice, afraid I was hallucinating him I looked up slowly, but I wasn't he as there next to me

-What...what are you doing here? Didn't you get on the plane?- he cupped my face and wiped my tears

-Jade told me you needed to tell me something very important and that you were on your way, so I decided I could delay my flight a few hours for you- I got nervous because of his words and because of his touch

-So, what do you need to tell me?- it was now or never, this was my last chance. I grabbed his hands and sighed

-Why didn't you tell me you were leaving?- I looked at him and he looked any other way but me

-You didn't ask- I frowned and he gave me a little smile, one of those which warmed my heart

-I'm being serious Alex, I didn't even get to say goodbye to you, why you didn't tell me you were leaving?-

-Because it wasn't going to change anything Perrie, we had made our choice there was no point in telling you, we both knew it was time to end things. Plus, I was afraid if I told you, you will somehow made me stay and I can't be close to you and not being with you is too pain much princess- he sighed, and I felt how he squeezed my hand

-Is that the reason why you're leaving?- I said with a little hope in me, if that was we could fix all of this and finally be together, but if it wasn't then it was all lost

-When you left me that day at your concert I knew we were over, I was too hurt Perrie, it wasn't your fault I know but still I was and I knew it was time to change airs, so I started to look for options, it was June and the transfers between clubs was more open than ever, I found the LA Galaxy and well the rest of the story I guess you already know it.

-I don't get it, you loved your life, why would you try to leave it behind only because of me?-

-You don't get it right?- he smiled sadly and caress my cheek

-I used to love my life when you were on it, princess, without you I'm not interested anymore, when I'm at home I can't think about anything else than all the moments we lived there, is the only thing I can focus on. How am I supposed to recover well and play if I can only think about you here? You said it yourself it is time to move on and the only way I can do that is far from here, far from you- after saying that he let his hands fall from my cheek and an instant cold came to me

-You wanted to know why I'm leaving? There it is P, you wanted a goodbye? Well I hope someday you can be happy with a man that can fully love you, I wasn't enough for you Perrie and that's what I regret the most because I know I could have been but because of fear I wasn't, I love you princess, goodbye- he kissed my cheek and got up, I saw him walking away deciding whether if I should go after him or finally let him go "Now or never" I stood up and ran after him, when I reached him I took his hand stopping him, he turned around, look at me and smiled. The moment I saw him smiling I knew he didn't want to leave

-Hold on- I whispered and hugged him feeling his heartbeat

-What?-

-Don't leave me. You are right, we can be good without each other, you can do good without me and I know that, but I promise we can do much better with each other. Just like you I'm not interested in a life without you is too much pain, but I'm tired of running away so here I am asking you for one more chance, please give us another chance, stay here Alex, stay with me- 

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Sorry for not updating, being busy these past weeks, school is killing me 😭

One last chapter...