Dating Jeon Jungkook [Jikook] || English Version

Chapter Twenty six

Jimin's POV

It's been one week and two days since we talked. I needed some time to clear my mind so I didn't attend my classes too just to avoid him.

I realized that it was my fault to begin with. I chose to be with him so I should take the consequences and blame myself for everything. I let myself be part of Jungkook's life.

Hobi already warned me but all did was snapped at him when tried to say everything. I was too stubborn and didn't hear him out. I was being selfish that time, only focusing on my happiness.

"If it's because of his past relationship then I just want to remind you, the person who will going to hurt in this relationship is me and not you. I choose to be with him, please stop this and be happy for me."

The funny thing is I really got hurt in the end.

I'm so stupid for blaming them. I hurt Hobi, Seokjin and Namjoon.

I shouldn't have blamed Jungkook too. He asked me. He asked me to date him and I agreed. He's never been a bad boyfriend to me. He treat me well and made me feel that I'm important to him, that he care for me, that he loves me even though I knew that it wasn't really me.

It hurts. I'm still hurting. But I need to accept the fact that we are not meant for each other. He love someone else and I can never change that. I don't think forgetting about him, about us is easy, we had many happy memories together too and it will be hard for me to move on but I have to. I need to. It's the best thing to do.

If you think carefully, In our situation right now, Jungkook is the one who is hurting more because the one he truly loves left him without saying a word.

I can understand why he can't move on. Taehyung left him without saying anything and worst Taehyung left him because he has amnesia. Meaning, Jungkook knew Taehyung loves him too but because of his condition they can't be together now.

But Jungkook doesn't deserve any of it. He is a good boyfriend. Taehyung should have give Jungkook a chance to prove himself. He should have stayed and let Jungkook be part of his life again, just like what Seokjin told me.

It's easy for Taehyung to leave Jungkook because he lost his memories but did he ever consider the latter's feelings?

Whenever I recall the looked on Jungkook's face while he was looking at his pictures or when he cried while watching Taehyung's video, makes my whole chest hurting not because of jealousy but because I feel sorry for Jungkook.

Knowing that Jungkook tried to kill himself because of him, hurts me more. I wish I knew him that time, how I wish I was there to comfort him. He doesn't deserve to get hurt. He deserves to be loved.

After realizing everything, I decided to let him go so that I could move on. I need to break things off between us.

I love him for more than two years now of course breaking things off between us is not easy to do. But I need to let go of this relationship right?

I decided to not tell the reason why I'm breaking up with him. I don't want to hear from him the truth. I don't want to hear from him that he still love him. I don't want him to pity me. I don't want him to feel sorry and most importantly I don't want him to say sorry. I will get more sad and hurt if he say that to me.

My phone suddenly vibrates.

I had rejected everyone's call when I knew everything. I keep on running away and I know I can't keep doing things like this. I need to see and talk to them now especially Jungkook.