Feelings Like These - Tyrus

Confessions

   It has been about two months sense everyone went off to do their own things, like Jonah and camp, Andi with her parents planning their wedding and Buffy with figuring out basketball. But sue also had a new guy ok her life. But then there is me still trying to finger out about TJ and what the look back meant. Buffy has her own thoughts but she didn't tell me. I hung out with her as much as I could but sometimes I just didn't want to, I did a lot of hanging out with TJ it felt cool having a guy friend to hang out with. We had our talks getting to know each other's secrets or fears. But some things do have its problems.

   Cyrus I hear my mom say to me in a Sunday morning, yes mom I say with an annoyed tone oh how is wish I didn't do that because of the look she gave me. Buffy is here you need to get out of the house you have been laying around for the last week school starts tomorrow. Tomorrow is the first day of 8th grade not sure how I feel but I have 20 hours tell then. Hey Buffy I say with a smile on my face it wasn't forced or anything I felt like I haven't seen her in a long time or that's what it feel like .

Buffy POV:

   We are going to the Spoon Andi said she'll meet us there in 20 minutes how does that sound. I say to Cyrus not looking directly at him. I feel he could be some sorry of upset with me because of how busy my summer has been. Buffy? He asked me with a questioning look. How do you know if someone hate you or doesn't talk to you same as they ones did? I look at him who are you talking about? He didn't give me an answer. I can't say who I just can't something happen and I feel I said the  wrong thing. What happen Cyrus?

Cyrus POV:

  I could not tell her that TJ and I have been hanging out pretty much any chance we got, could I? But then again they made up right? She looked at me with a look that I know all to well, it was a look she gave me when she figured out I liked Jonah. Is this about Jonah? she asked, no I say kinda scared on what she'd say next. Then she said the two letter I thought she'd never say in a calm voice. Yes TJ, well I think he's mad at me. Why she asked In a concerned voice. Someone told him he plays basketball like a girl and I just laughed not really thinking of what I did was wrong so now he isn't talking to me. Cyrus have you tried talking to him? Well of course but he won't respond or acknowledge me.

   As we got to the spoon I see a happy smiling TJ Kippen with his arm around some girl, I didn't know it tell now that my feeling for Jonah turned into feeling for TJ. Not the friendship feeling but the feelings you get when you like really like like someone. The ones I had for Jonah during Hanukkah when Jonah and Andi got together it the first time.

Buffy POV:

  I look at Cyrus  and all I see is his face pail white. I ask him do you want to go sit at our special table and talk? But I look and I don't see him he's gone. I look around then walk out the door as I see him running faster than I thought he could but I didn't feel like saying anything. I walk back inside and see TJ who looked so happy a few minutes before now he looks like a sad little puppy hurt. It made me feel sad for him. I walk over to TJ and sit down H-hey TJ I say, how are you. Good why did Cyrus run out the door ? I'm not sure he ran so fast that I didn't feel like catching him. But he told me he laughed at you for some guy calling you a girl at playing basketball. Buffy I'm not mad at him that's not why I'm mad at him. Then why are you mad at him? He doesn't understand that I really really care about him and I don't want to lose him. What do you mean? I've been trying to tell him that I like him like more than a boy should like another boy,  I feel he will hate me forever and I told what to do.

  TJ POV:

   As I tell Buffy how I feel she has a look in her eye with a smile on her face. TJ you are no different it's perfectly okay to like boys. Buffy I say it's not boys it's only one boy and his name is Cyrus. How long have you known she asked, well sense the day we talked for the first time at the Swings. Well really had a talk. But I don't think he will ever e like me he had a girlfriend and me I had none not one there were crushes but crushes but having our with Cyrus makes me feel like love. You will never know unless you Find our if he will ever like you back she says. Or even if he likes guy for that matter. Mhm she says smiling at me. Thank you Buffy I'll talk to Cyrus.

Jonah POV:

   I don't here much of the conversation cause TJ was just starting out to be in this friendship group but I do hear him say thank you buffy I'll talk to Cyrus. I know that they have been close over they summer when I was gone but I still have my suspicions on TJ. Yeah I hang out with him but it's what people in sports do and Ike is the basketball guys invited me trying to get me into doing basketball but I'm still a frisbee guy. What does he have to talk to Cyrus about is Cyrus ok? TJ walks away and I ask Buffy what was going on . She tells me. Just a heartfelt congratulation with Not So scary basketball guy, with a smile on her face. Hmm isn't that what Cyrus calls him?

  Cyrus POV:

   I made it home after a walk to the part thinking about my feeling for TJ not really understanding why a guy like me likes TJ who is the captain of the basketball team and has all the girls after him and thinking he would never like me Cyrus Goodman the one guy who just learned how to do a summersault by TJ himself.

   Later that night going through my Facepage stalking TJ's because I've been doing it for the last few hours. I then come up on a post he tagged me in the day of my birthday. " Just wanted to with a Happy Birthday to you hope you had a wonderful day. I'm so lucky to have a friend like you I would not change it for anything. Thanks for Inviting me love TJ." I put my phone on my chest and fell asleep with butterflies with a smile on my face.