Nobody will protect me from my suffering.
I can't cry it away or starve it away or smoke it away.. It's just there. I can't help myself.
Nobody can help me anyways..
You see. When i feel like i'm drowning, dying or sleeping with my eyes open i just can't end it.
Someone helped me. But just for that time.
And so on and so on and so on...
I hate hurting others. I would rather hurt myself.
I don't know if i could make it .
If I could finish that pain. I see just one way, but it's not really right..
I'm trying. Do I wanna know..
Do I even wanna know if I can make it?
