How is it that I'm the one in the wrong. You have believed a lie that someone has told you so you wouldn't come back if you did. You wouldn't believe me and let it overcome you. How is it that no matter what I try or do to talk to you about I can't get in in your head. You think I was messing around and I wasn't. You even posted something about me about YOUR thoughts saying if you listened you'd be better off today. Well if they were that bad in your head how did you not know you should tell me. I spent months trying to keep you happy and it's never helped. You've always stayed that way no matter what. I can't give you anything more I've given you all I've had I'm emotionally and mentally drained at the moment. I've given you all and I've met my wall down one to many times I'm worse than I was. Instead those messages that you sent about you loved me and knew you would stay with me and knew I was the ONE for you but I guess that wasn't the case cause now you're gone and I'm pretty sure I have lost you forever and I can't believe that it's hurts it hurts A lot. Maybe you will find someone who you're happy with and doesn't have a child like I do and you could pursue your dreams and has a license and everything. Even though you said you won't find anyone you also said I never would lose you and I have so that was false and I'm pretty sure that about another person is also. Everyone hates me now so what's there left to do except fix myself from how bad this has messed with me. You asked me to get better and I did but you seemed like you wanted me to change myself entirely and I couldn't do that and maybe that's what made you unhappy. Maybe I never was the one for you but you for me. Maybe it was never meant to be just a test. I tried so hard this year and it's because of you you kept me going and believing I could do it but now I can't even concentrate much less figure out what to fix with me I got into college because YOU told me I could and now I don't know if I even wanna go. You were proud of me the only one proud of me and now you're not my person, my baby, my honeypot, my boo, or my baby boy and I guess I'm no longer your princess, queen, honeybee, baby, babygirl, and babe but just a person. This is the end maybe or maybe it's a new beginning for us time only knows and we will see. I'm sorry I couldn't be what you wanted it needed. I'm sorry I wasn't even enough.
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