bad habits and broken smiles

Chapter 14

*oh my fucking goodness gorsh we got 2K read I'm so in shock rn it's 2 am and I'm like crying ilysm*

~Amy~

I look at Matt and think can I trust him he looks deep in my eyes and reached for my hand and clutches it. A warm feeling spread through my body yes I can I force back a smile and exhale. "It's okay babe, nothing leaves this little rock" he says patting the small space between us.

"I've been thinking a lot about Mitch" I say forcing it from my mouth. His small smile slowly wears down "what about him?" He says looking down and licking his lips. He seems mad. "I miss him so much because I actually fell for him. Like head over heels but he didn't feel that connection. The only connection he felt was the one where he would hold me and that's about it." Matt clenched his teeth together "fuck I hate guys like that" excuse me Matt? You used to be like that.. I think to myself. He continues on "he's such a fucking pig for not seeing the beauty that is you." He says putting his hand against my face and softly kissing me.

*a few hours later*

All we did was discuss what he was "missing out" on, hell most of it melted my heart like a freezie under a heat lamp. I remember one thing in particular which was:

Amy, you don't think twice about going back to that jerk. He's not worth it if all he wants is your body. Sure it's natural to miss someone who you've done almost everything with, I get it. But he's gone for a reason, and I don't think he should ever come back. You are beautiful, smart, nice, quirky, lazy, weird, skeptical, judgmental but all in the best way that I just have to adore. He's a fucking fool for not seeing the greatest treasure that is you. You aren't just a pretty rock, you are a diamond. And no one can break you.

I've been feeling butterflies in my stomach all night, I lay in a separate room than him, it's dark and I think he's asleep. I haven't been able to sleep all night because I've been on Netflix and I'm smiling so much. He's amazing and I never saw through that raw hide leather coat and that flirtatious mask he's a softie when it comes to women.

~Matt~

I haven't been able I sleep all night, she told me about Mitch and what happened with them. They were cute but I never ever shipped them. I'm just on my phone scrolling through Facebook. All of a sudden a notification comes up, it's none other than Carter. I miss him already.

Carter ReyReyReynolds: ayeeeeee

Me: sup dawgggg xD

Carter ReyReyReynolds: ahh with some baes gonna get some booboobootayyyy xD

Me: really?

Carter ReyReyReynolds: nah I'm playin x-box

Me: thought so..

Carter ReyReyReynolds:you wanna kill some punk ass nerds?

Me: no I'm at my beach house

Carter ReyReyReynolds: when you comin home?

Me: I don't think I am....

All of a sudden my phone rings, it's Carter. I pick up and instantly hear him say in the most serious tone ever "what do you mean you don't think you are" I whisper so I don't wake up the gorgeous being in the next room "they found me man and I was with Amy, I can't put her in danger like that. Leaving her to basically die wouldn't be fair" he sighs and speaks again "meet me at the secret place in about a week, we need to discuss this in person." I nod my head "yea okay that's right what time?" I'm kinda tired so I just flop back into my bed "5 sharp and I mean sharp" he says in a snappy tone. "Okay, bye" I say, he hangs up without an answer.

Carter and I have been dealing with some guys on our ass about some drug bust that our dads did. Our dads later moved out of the country and erased all memory of their existence, all except for me and Carter. They swore revenge on our dads, so they are taking it out on us. I don't think it's fair but apparently that's the game. So me and carter started attending some piddley-ass high school to keep us off the streets. It's been like this since I started high school. I've been living with my "dad" aka the decoy dad me and my younger sister have.

I lay in my bed looking up at the ceiling, the moon is shining through the glass door leading to a balcony. I hear a creak in the floor boards, I reach under my bed and pull out a gun. I sit up slowly to see what it is and see Amy's small figure in the doorway "I can't sleep" she says in a small voice. I quickly hide the gun before she notices and smile at her "come here" I say lifting the blanket and opening my arms. She slides under the cover and places her hand and her head on my chest bringing one leg up. She nuzzles into my chest and I kiss her head "goodnight beautiful" I say just before my eyes close.