Please don't leave me [Climbing Class]

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Chris's POV

I anxiously stared at my phone,hoping that Josh would replay.Is been a year since we all pranked Josh,and I have to admit that prank was awful,I never wanted to be involved with it and I've tried to talk to Mike and the others to not do this prank but they never listen.They all said that it would be a funny prank,so with that I went along with it because I knew that I wouldn't be able to stop them.Honestly I feel bad for Josh,he's my best friend and seeing his sister's die must be so horrifying,I wouldn't be able to imagine what it feels like to lose your love ones.Despair,hatred,or heartbroken?,Josh probably felt all of those when he found out that he's sisters had died.

"Chris?,hello?"

I looked over to see Ashley smiling while holding my hand,I swear I could have seen a hint of concern in her eyes,"What?",I asked feeling confuse,what did she want to say to me?.

"Chris are you okay?,you seem to be thinking alot lately...",she said softly while her smile turned into a frown.

"Oh..uh I'm just really worried about Someone..." I say as I force a smile.I don't know why but I have this feeling that makes me just want to protect Josh from any danger,why am I feeling this?,I mean we are best friends and all,still why do I always feel happy around him,like the world disappears when we are together.I'm so confuse, do I love Josh?, Do I want to be more than just friends?,what is wrong with me?,I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore.I blush slightly thinking about all possibilities that could happen,and that's when I realise I'm still sitting in the couch with Ashley holding her hand.I quickly pulled my hand away from hers,feeling uncomfortable,and stood up.

"Where are you going?",Ashley said sounding a bit hurt and sad,that I had removed my hand from hers.

"I'm going home,thanks for inviting me to come here,it was nice talking to you",I said rather in a serious voice,walking towards the door and opening it."Oh okay,By-",before she could finsish,I slammed the door and walked quickly into the cold frozen breeze.I'm not gonna lie,but being there with her wasn't as fun as before,I didn't feel any sparks while talking to her,I didn't feel as happy and the last part that I said to her about,"it was nice talking to you",was clearly a lie.Suddenly I see that the wind has gotten more colder and harder to see and walk through,I ran quickly to my house,hoping not to get ingured or die out here alone.

After what seems like hours,I finally reached back home safety,I closed the door and locked it tightly from preventing any damage.I then went to my room and flopped down on the bed tiredly.I feel so numb and empty but yet I still couldn't stop thinking about Josh,I miss him so much,probably more than the others.I'm sure no one was really close to him except from Sam and his sisters,but I was the one that was always there for him,I understood him more than anybody in our group,and not being able to talk to him affected me.I feel like is my fault for not being there for him but at the same time I think I shouldn't be there,so I can give him personal space.

I sigh and sit up,"why do I have to have feelings,this is so annoying!" I shouted as I grip my hair,possibly pulling some out,all of this makes me so stress but how can I not be thinking about him,I should be worried about him since we are best friends.I just want to see him agian,I know he probably won't want to see me or anyone else since he is still devastated by the prank.All I can do now is hope that he is alright,that he will hopefully stop thinking about the prank and not blaming himself.

I grabbed my phone out of my pocket and cheacked if Josh had replied to my message,noting he hasn't seen it yet,why?,I have texted him like twenty times for the past few months and he still haven't seen them.Disappointed at this I put my phone back in my pocket and prepared myself for tonight.When I'm all done I turn off all the lights and lay down in my bed,the last thing I thought of was

,"Please come back to me Josh",and with that I slowly drifted away in my sleep with a smile.

(Well that's all I have for today,hope you enjoy it so far)