to all the boys i've loved before

11

lara jeans pov:
today is my first orchestra rehearsal. i walk into the classroom and take a seat at the back taking out my violin. the teacher, mr.morr, tells us that we are going to have our first concert in december. this week, he wants us to get to know each other so he groups us into groups of 4 for an easy little project. i realise that zac is here too, he plays the flute. i pray i'm not with him.

"lara jean, sam, amanda and um.."

please NOT zac.

"how about zac, yeah?"

great. that's just great.

zac. sam, amanda and i go sit in a corner to start working on our project. all we have to do is practice a song with me in the violin, zac on flute, amanda on cello, and sam on harp.

"i think we'll need more than the next few orchestra classes to rehearse this in time." sam suggests.

"i agree." zac says.

"are any of you free tomorrow and wednesday after school, we can book the music room?" amanda suggests.

we decide to meet tomorrow and wednesday afternoon i'm the music room. i don't know why i'm so troubled my zac, but i just am.

after school

"he's in my group." i complain to peter, as i take another bite of the krispy kreme donut he bought me.

"you'll be fine. amanda's nice."

"that's true."

we arrive at my house, and i kiss peter goodbye.

"call me later, ok?"

i give him a thumbs up before he drives away. i go to my room and practice the violin for a bit, and finish my homework. i am just about to call peter, but i notice his hoodie sitting in my bed. i need to practice my driving so i'll just drive to his house it's not far.

i grab peters hoodie and hop in my car, and yep i made it to his house without killing anyone. and then i see him. i'm sitting in the front seat of my car, his hoodie in my hand, and i see him. he's in his room, he's standing by his window. and he's hugging gen. the gen that i hate so much. the gen thats is his ex. the gen that tried to ruin our relationship. and he's hugging her. she's in his room. i don't feel well. so i drive, i drive nonstop down the open road. suddenly, i see a bright light and hear a loud horn then i crash.

then it's dark.