You Are The Cause My Euphoria

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Trigger Warning Self loathing self harm, suicidal thoughts

Lily

I was becoming really close with Hobi. He just has that aura around him that keeps you positive and confident. Jimin didn't like it that much though.

" Lily let me help you." Hobi said grabbing the bigger box I had putting it on the bus. The staff had packed everything away and now we taking it with us. Dad was gone for the night so we had a great opportunity to do this.

" Thanks Hobi." I smiled and went to go grab another box. But as I went to pick it up Hobi had grabbed it we both looked up at the same time and our lips touched for a second.

" I'm so sorry Lily I didn't mean to please forgive me!" Aww he looked adorable when he was sorry.

" It's okay Hobi. It was an accident." I smiled and ruffled his hair. It was an accident...

3rd person

but to Jimin it didn't feel like an accident...

" Let's load up some more I guess." Hobi scratched his neck. Lily nodded and went to grab a box and Hobi did the same.

Jimin

I don't know why I was so heartbroken but I was. Hobi was good at everything dancing, rapping, singing, making people feel better. What I am then? I'm nothing no matter how hard I try.

I walked in the house and up to Lily's room where we cuddled. I'm gonna miss that. I'll miss her. But it's obvious Hobi is perfect for her.

I walked into her bathroom and picked up a hair razor. I tilted my head up contemplating what to do with it. I threw it on the ground breaking the plastic part.

" Hello old friend." I smiled and sank down to the floor pulling my sleeve up. I shivered at the cold touch of the blade. Here goes nothing...

This feeling was all too familiar. I had been jealous of Hobi ever since we formed. I appreciated his lessons but I just was never good enough. I still don't know why P.D. Nim choose me out of all the people I faced off against.

As I watched my blood run down my arms I thought to myself

I'm free...

"Jimin!" I was emotionless as I heard J-Hope scream my name. I chuckled to myself as I passed out hopefully I can give them piece of mind now that I'm dying.

Lily

We all turned our heads as we heard a scream come from upstairs. And the two people missing are Hobi and Jimin. My heart was rushing the second i realized that. We quickly went inside.

We ran to my room and we immediately broke down in tears. Hobi had blood on him and Jimin was laying almost lifeless in his arms.

" Oh my god!" Yoongi started crying really hard and collapsed in Sunny's arms. All the guys except Nam were on the ground crying their eyes out. He was calling an ambulance.

" Jimin why?!" I sat next to Hobi and held his face. When the ambulance got here Nam went with him and we all crammed in Sunny's car and a cab.

" Fuck why does life hate me?!" I was shaking in my seat. Hobi was there comforting me. But I told him not to touch me until he washed the blood off which thankfully he understood.

" What could have cause him to do that?" Once Sunny said that I realized something... the accidental kiss...

" Oh god what have I done I should've explained to him what happened. This is all my fault! Jimin I'm so sorry!"

" What why? Honey this isn't your fault."

" Yes it is Unnie when we were putting up boxes Hobi helped me with one and when we looked up our lips lightly brushed each others. Jimin must have seen it. Instead of going over to my boyfriend and explain I decided to smile and play with Hobi's hair. God I'm such a fuck up!" I was full on going into a panic attack.

We arrived and as soon as we did the others were calling for help. I was going unconscious and I was having a panic induced seizure. Great now the other are worried about me. What else am I gonna fuck up?

Jimin

I woke up to some sniffling. It was Hoseok.

" J-Hope? What are you doing here?"

" Jimin I do not like Lily like that I swear she's like a little sister. That 'kiss' you saw was an accident." His eyes begged for me to say something.

" I... I forgive you. Where is she?" He smiled sadly and pulled the curtain that separated my bed and the person next to me. It was Lily. She was stirring in her sleep.

" Lily?" She woke up to the sound of my voice. When she saw me she instantly started crying.

" Jimin I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to make you feel horrible. It's all my fault. Please don't break up with me." I wanted to reach out to her but I was trapped with the IV.

" Lily I'm so sorry. I will never leave you ever again. I'm so sorry I let you down." I cried.

" Jimin I thought I lost you. Please don't make me look for you again." I nodded to her.

" I promise." I held out my pinky. She did too but we still couldn't reach. Hobi came over and hooked our pinkies with his.

" I filled the gap. So your connected through me." We smiled at each and then at Hobi.

Lily

" Yay! I can't wait!" Later that day Jimin and I were released. And the bus was finally fixed. We were on our way to the hotel. I was hungry and tired.

" Are you hungry Jagiya?" Jimin asked playing with my hair.

" How did you know?" He smiled at me.

" It's a boyfriend thing." He kissed my cheek.

" I'm tired let's go to bed." J-Hope said ruffling Kookie's hair. Jin and Nam shared a room Kookie and J-Hope had a room. Jimin and I. Yoongi and Sunny   and Tae and Josh.

" Goodnight guys!" Sunny said blowing us a kiss.

" So what do you wanna eat?" Jimin said turning to me.

" Doesn't matter I just wanna be with you." He pulled me into kiss.

" Alright let's go beautiful."

Two chapters boo yah. Lol hope you like them!