I see swimming pools and living rooms and aeroplanes
I see a little house on the hill and children's names
I see quiet nights poured over ice and Tanqueray
But everything is shattering and it's my mistake
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lilix
Interview in a little! Wish me luck xx
Me
Ofc love you youll do great
*message read*
I turn on the telly and watch as the boys are introduced onto the show. They all look magnificient and glowing. Oof.
Later in in the segment, the interviewer asks if anyones seeing anyone. A line of "no, not yet." follows one by one. I see felix get nervous, then quickly stutter, "No." I feel my heart hurt. Did it really not mean anything? The three days I spent with him? All the promises, the love, the kisses, the touches....nothing? The times we spent together spread throughout this past year meant nothing? Was i just a doll who he needed to play with? Should i even tell him about- no. Not right now. He doesn't deserve to know.
The interview ends and i recieve a message from him.
lilix
I love you
I leave him on read. He had promised to be straightforward with the boys and stay about our relationship. He was going to tell them during this specific interview. He promised. Why did'nt he live up to that promise?
Maybe i was nothing after all.
Well, Felix, two can play at that game. Let's see how you like it.
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Why didnt she respond? I know I promised to say it at this interview but, it ended up being not the right time. Doesn't she see i want to come out about being with her actually with her? By my side? Together?
Me
Can i explain?
my night sky
.....you promised....do i really mean nothing to you?
Me
I wanted to come forward with you...next to me...like how i want to be with you, next to you forever.
my night sky
...ig that makes sense...im sorry
Me
Its ok...is everything alright?
my night sky
I wont be able to come next week...
Me
Why? Are you alright?
my night sky
No not really
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Cliffhanger! Mwhahaha anywho if you didnt catch on "lilix" is lil-felix smooshed together and rinn is irish for us/star therefore "my night sky" and grà is irish for love so lowkey star-crossed lovers?? Idk?? Maybe?? love you and see yall later xx
