my maid {Markhyuck}

questions

I'm finally writing again!!
Try to enjoy this.

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(Mark's pov)

Taeyong looked like he regretted what he said right away.

He pushed my hands away from his shirt and fixed himself, while looking very nervous.

"Look i can't really say much but...the reason why chan doesnt tell you about his job is because he's embarresed and he doesnt know it's concidered illegal"

"So why can't you say anything?"

Everyone in the room is silent just looking at me then back to taeyong.

"Because I'll get in trouble..telling the agents was the scariest thing ive ever done."

I come closer to taeyong and hug him.

"Is this related to your dad?"

I felt his body tense suddenly and he started sttutering.

"I-It doenst m-matter, what matters is that they will help him"

After a while the tension died and we just started hanging out talking, eating and playing games as usual.

Me and jaehyun found ourselves on the sofa talking alone.

"What about you feelings towards chan?"

I drop my head to look at my knees saying " I don't know about that"

"Okay so you havent figured it out yet"

"How could I? I have never even been with a guy before..it never even crossed my mind to be with a guy, also I think it would be terrible to be gay..
Not because I think it's bad, but I just feel like when I do it its wrong or..like it will make things more complicated.
Also how will I come out if I dont even have a boyfriend to be there with me supporting me?"

He pats my shoulder and laughs

"You really thought this through huh?, mark I think you just don't want it to be true and you dont realise it's not something you can change"

"So you think I should come out to chan even though I cant really be with him?"

"I think you should try and at least first addmit it to yourself.
But honestly, have you never looked at a man and thought he just looked good?"

The first person to pop up is donghyuck, that night he came back all bruised and sticky was terrible and sad but for some reason I found myself looking at his body in a way that weirded me out.

Also when he kissed my cheek, I felt these weird waves in my stomach and I started sweating.

"Maybe...but what if I'm really just straight?
What if I'm overthinking about being gay and having to experience it"

"Why do you feel like you need to be with a man to know youre gay but you don't feel that way about a women?"

Interesting...I don't really know why.

Before being able to respond, Suddenly chenle comes in with my phone
"Mark you got a message"

'Mark I'm leaving for work, this phone is in my room'

The message from donghyuvck said.

I also got a message from wendy.

'Mark, we might be up to something right now, care to join?'

It took me two minutes to say goodbye to everyone and call wendy to join her.

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I get into the car where wendy is waiting for me and then the car drives off right as i sit down.