problematic stories of a teen

Impossible case

Authors note: OK i'm sorry i have been gone for a very long time........ i have been really busy doing nothing. I take eng lit so i think it would be good for me to write. sooooooo enjoy my angst and emotional writing. 

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primary school. 

The careless years of your childhood full of sweets and playground games. There to prepare you for the next step of secondary school ready enough knowledge and common sense. Brimming with enthusiasm. Nourished and happy passive little robots ready to work. Me, i came out damaged angry and let down by everyone. 

Kids can be cruel. 

I was timid, silent, young, and poor. A bullies perfect description of its meal. preyed my happy little worlds destroyed on the daily. Thunderstorms filled my brain and anger raged my fists. Tormented and torn from snide comments and snorts of laughter. No one deserves that childhood. 

Year 3 , they stopped sitting next to me. Year 4 , they stopped talking to me. Year 5, the infamous "Ellie touch" was established. Year 6, i made a friendship group who used me as there fun. 

Never did they try when the saw me sitting alone at lunch. Not having a partner in PE. I was left alone with my thoughts. By year 6 i was deppresed. A child left miserable and failed. I was desperate for attention but too silenced to speak up. The need to be liked was so strong, so intense. Ignored and left. I was fed to the sharks from day 1. The teachers new exactly what was going on but i wasn't important. If anything i was an annoyance. She hasn't told us so it is really happening. 

In year 6 i thought my problems where resolved i had a group, where i was used. As daily entertainment. Who could avoid her for the longest. It was plain to see yet i clung on until year 8 as the prospect of loneliness was too much to handle. well to those girls who made every thing worse you would be jealous of the life i have now, they friends i have. I laugh everyday, support, love and respect is what makes a friendship. But you will never be able to comprehend that. 

To the bullies and the teachers who let me down, damaged me and left me broken. i always thought i was an impossible case that people just didn't anything to do with. You ruined my young childhood. I was depressed, i can't trust people, i flinch when someone laughs behind me. Because all i can think about is the cackles that always followed me like a shadow. What you gave me was strength. i can pick myself up again. I recovered. Although i was left messed up look at my life know and you would never guess it. 3 of you have dropped out of school, where as i am doing well. To the teachers your bad at the job, the lies you fed my parents and many more is shameful and disgusting .