Megan POV
I grab the covers from my bed and slowly drag my body out of bed and slowly walk down the stairs. every step I took my heart got heavier and heavier, like led. I could see the letter sitting there at a 90 degree angle. Brown envelope. White paper. pen placed on the right hand side. I tried to notice all the little details about the table so I could forget what the letter was about. I placed one hand on the chair and took a deep breath
"Don't think about it Megan" was the only thing that I could think of. My hands were shaking too much for me to open it so I went into the kitchen to grab a knife out the drawer. There was only one. It was the knife that Cameron caught me trying to kill myself with. I was about to open the letter when I felt a buzzing sensation coming from the pocket my...i mean Shawns jumper. has shawn finally calling to say that he wants me back or is cameron calling to say he was wrong.
"Megan we need to talk!" I here a voice shouting though the phone to me. I didn't recognise it at first until it hit me. it was my friend Erin.
"Shawn was wrote a song about you it's called the weight. what has happened between you both the last time we talked you were basically moving in with him." She stated softly
"Well technically I have. I became an alcoholic, my mum chucked me out, I got a lift from the barman cameron bought me a house, and now I am living in Shawns house in Canada. I am loving life here... well I wouldn't say loving it." I explained
"You don't seem happy, shawn thinks that you are cheating on him with cameron."
"We aren't going out how can I be cheating on him!"
"Well listen to the lyrics to his song, he makes it very clear! I need to go I'm getting into a taxi."
As soon as Erin gets off the phone I google his lyrics. there was about 12 pages I scrolled down them and found this:
"I want to go back, forget that it's over
Painted in black, when you left me alone
I never knew, she was sleeping next door
With the kid I grew up with, and I can't go back to her
Anymore, no more
You tell me you were happier with him , but ,you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you push me away
But then you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
No, I can't lift the weight
Put you in the past, try to forget you cause it's over
And every time you ask I'll pretend I'm okay
In the middle of the night when I don't feel right
I dream I can hold you, and I can't go back to you anymore, yeah, yeah
You tell me you were happier with him, you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you push me away
But then you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
But, I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight
And I can't lift the weigh, no I can't life the weight
Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks
And I can't lift the weigh, no I can't life the weight
Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks
And I can't lift the weigh, no I can't life the weight
Yeah, you lower your standards and I raise the stakes
And I can't lift the weigh, no I can't life the weight
You tell me you were happier with him but you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you, you push me away
But then you try to take it back, my heavy heart just breaks
But, I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight
You tell me you were happier with him, you want me to stay
You told me that you needed time but you, you push me away
And then you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
Say someday you will change, but I don't wanna wait"
Now I'm mad!
