Gangsta (Starker)

chapter 21

Antony's POV

The first thing I see after waking up is the toilet and vomit and think that's the worst thing to see in the morning then I see Brady and his ' i'm so disappointed in you ' face. And that changes my mind .

"Okay what did I do this time ?" I groan when he opens the door and the light hits me .

"Ahh the light ." he forcefully hauls me up and shoves me in the bed and the whole world spins .

"I really fucked something up didn't I , you know I make really bad decisions when I am drunk ."

"I think you don't need alcohol to make bad decisions , you're already a pro at it ." I smirk then groan when another wave of nausea hits me.

"Is this about preston ? I know I shouldn't have attacked the girl but she was in his bed . Preston is mine hence his bed is mine too by proxy ." he looks like I've let whole america down .

"I think you shouldn't have attacked Preston but that's my opinion ." I never attacked him oh shit , the realization was probably showing on my face .

"What happened ? What do I do ?! What did do dammit ?!" He sighs and sits down , its going to take a while .

"First thing you did after coming back from preston's was opening a bottle of scotch then a few more but I lost the count after brandy .after scaring the shit of everyone , you then decided to send harry to get preston here ." I realized I don't want to listen anymore , I don't want to face reality . I just wanna take a nap .

" why didn't you do anything ?" I don't want to deal with this shit anymore , self loathing is a disgusting feeling thought I was too dead inside to feel it .

"I was about to send him back but you called him in ." oh hello regret good to see you , go ahead stand right next to self loathing .

"Please tell me you hit me with a frying pan and ran away with preston." he sighs and rubs his neck a quirk of him whenever he gets nervous .

"After a while we heard some noises so we came in (barged in ) and you were leaning against the chairs and preston was on the floor and sammy drove him back home ." he isn't telling me everything .

"If I tell him that I confused him with a prostitute , will he forgive ?" I look at him with puppy eyes or old exhausted dog eyes .

"You messed up antony , he was bleeding when we came in . you were angry and drunk doesn't take a genius to figure out what happened ." I wouldn't hurt Preston , I've never layed a hand on anyone i have slept with .

I'm not an abusive partner , I didn't , I couldn't have . maybe its all a mistake .

I'm not my father , I would never hit my significant other .I need to see Preston , I get up fast and felt dizzy .

"Tell harry to get the car out ." Brady stops me .

"Antony , you know I was against this from the start . I knew you would messed up somehow , I thought you would get him killed and you never dealt with loss very well ." you're lucky , you're my friend Brady or I would have shot you for saying this .

I leave him sitting in my room and get ready to meet him . the smell of alcohol and puke clings to me and I force myself to shower .

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So this story has probably 4 or 5 chapters left now , somehow I feel that this story wasn't good enough .

There  is not many fucking starker fics out there . it makes me so fucking mad 😾😾

So I am going to start posting another starker that I am working on .after this story is over .

Its called 'other side of the mirror '
I've told some people about the plot . and they said its deliciously dark .
So i'm excited .

Bye .