It is now that I feel somewhat at peace
I can mentally run away from the daytime's ugliness
escape into a wicked
or beautiful tune
maybe lie listlessly
try to see if I can stay awake the whole night long
perhaps I'll merrily pounce into a fantastic dream
where there are no crimes
no heartache
it's now that I'm free to be alone with my thoughts
good and bad
without judgement of their content
now I'm allowed a peaceful Paradise
still but only slightly haunting
I can dance with the ghosts of the night if I so wish
they tell me their secrets
and I confess mine
at this time I may screw my eyes shut
and bawl myself into a howling fit
if I'm truly alone
I can do this
I can beg, plead, try to bargain with my God
ask a million questions
all are inevitably answered in silence of course
no matter
cuz it is now that I can be
I am
just
me
