I'm NOT Okay
You just left , threw our plans on the floor
You just left , took my daughter and walked out the door
Five years, a marriage, and a child, and I'm not even worth a good bye note
My heart my soul, my blood, my sweat, my tears
I took your pain, I took your fears
I made them mine, I made you mine
No good byes, no farewells
You just left, I came home and you were gone
You just left
You have your friends you have your family
You're just moving on so happily
You tell me its better this way
Telling me to just move on, it will be ok
But its not ok
There is nothing ok with throwing it away
I gave you my all, I gave you everything
It was never enough, there was always something missing,
But all I ever wanted from you was a night of just kissing
And hugging and holding you tight
Feeling my heart begin to beat in unison with yours.
As you fall asleep, I'd take on your stress
I'd make it mine own, and I would tell you its going to be ok
But its not ok
Because it was never enough, so you started to push me away
You pushed me away in bed and out
You wanted the space, you wanted some distance
You knew you were leaving, you knew you had taken my everything
So you devised a plan, to help your self
To convince yourself, you were leaving for me
You are ok, you tell me its ok
But its not ok
I may say its ok, I may say I'm ok
But its not ok
I'M NOT OKAY.......
