Little Things ♡

bitter tears

The stream of tears rushed down my cheeks uncontrollably as I stood there, watching my brother's dead body lying there peacefully.

Screams escaped from my throat causing the agonising pain that grew inside me wither away. I fell to my knees and took his cold pure hands in my own.

His hands didn't feel like his but someone else's. The trees swayed back and forth as the wind grew stronger. I was too late. 

'Kayla!?' A familiar voice shouted. It was my mum.

The sound of crunching leaves grew louder. I didn't bother to glance back- I was already too weak to look at my mum face to face. I could feel her eyes scanned my brother and me with worry and panic.

'What happened!' She demanded.'i-i don't know I found him laying there and-' I couldn't bring myself to finish the sentence. The view of him laying there explained it all. After that, i remember the ambulance arriving along with police, but the rest of the memory feels like a haze.

When my brother's passed away, I wasn't the same person who I used to be. Not only I lost him but I lost a big part of me.

He was like my guardian angel who guided me through tough situations, he Supported me and loved me- he was always there for me.

I used to be loud and joyful but now im quiet and broken. It's quite funny how someone thats so important could have an impact on you too.

Today is my brothers 20th birthday. It was 5 years ago when he died, but it still feels like yesterday. The wounds are still fresh and my heart is still fragile. And so I know for certain that I will never heal.
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I laid there on my bed looking up at the plain ceiling thinking about how cruel mornings are, especially when it's the first day of school.

The covers on my bed were scattered all over the floor yet again along with my shitty alarm. Why can't I sleep like a normal human being?

I reached for the alarm to see how long I have to get ready for school. My eyes widened in surprise 'Shit' I can't believe I've been awake for so many hours and yet I still couldnt keep track of time.

I dashed to my closet and rushed to the bathroom to get ready. Well this wasnt quite the morning I expected.

It only took me 10 minutes to get ready which meant I finally beaten my record. I grabbed my backpack in one hand and my phone in the other.

Its weird that Kim hasn't called me yet, after all she's my only ride to school. Pressing the dial button, i waited for her voice to speak bit all i heard was no answer .great. I rolled my eyes as I marched downstairs in anger. When i reached the front door, my mum rushed towards me.

'Honey arent you going to eat breakfast? I made pancakes' she exclaimed.

'Sorry im not hungry mum' i responded coolly. I opened the door and escorted to school with a frown engraved on my face. Now im definitely going to be late.