Facing My Fears

Trying to Explain

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Raven's POV

I turn back to my friends and we all sit at a nearby table to talk about my situation a little bit. Also to catch up on some stuff.

We all just look at each other. Not sure who speaks up first or what questions to ask.

"You've been here this whole time?" Cyborg decides to ask first.

"Yes, I decided to come to Gotham and I asked Bruce if it would be alright if I just came here and hide out. Especially after the media knew I was gone. Bruce understood my situation that was going on. I wanted to keep myself hidden from the outside world so that no one would bother any of you." I explain.

"Even with you gone. They still kept asking us if we had any whereabouts of you. They just kept thinking that we kicked you out and that would never happen." Cyborg answers.

"I'm sorry."

I really still caused this even if I wasn't there. It's either one thing or the other.  Wait till the media hears about this.

"Have you've been slacking since you've got here?" Robin asks. Of course he would ask that question.

"No. Bruce actually let me be on the look out sometimes. As long as I left before anyone else sees me. Also, he's been helping me learn on my martial arts skills that way I wouldn't have to really use my powers a lot. I could have gotten caught real easy." I said.

I decided leave the Joker encounter out if this. I'll explain that some other time. I don't want them to be even more worried about me than before.

"Are you going to come back?" Starfire asks.

I look away and thought about it. Do I want to come back? I know I've missed them. But, I'm not sure if I do want to come back. Or maybe I do.

"I'm not sure about coming back yet. I mean, a lot just happened, I can't be sure. I'll have to think about it. Don't get me wrong Star, I really missed you all and I never stopped thinking about you guys. I kept wondering if you were all okay." I answer.

Starfire shows a sad smile.

Robin was about to ask another question but Beast Boy began to stand up and cut Robin off.

"Why haven't you told us how you were? How WE were doing?" He said with anger.

Why is he mad?

"I had to leave because you wouldn't want to cooperate. So that means I'm on my own and I didn't need to let anyone know what I've been up to. Besides, why would you care? You didn't even came out and say goodbye when I left."

Everyone was quiet for a while. But Beast Boy broke the silence.

"Everyone was worried about you! And you didn't even bother to see if we were all okay? You said you always wanted to know if we were, but did you even try?"

Why is he making me the bad guy here?

But then I actually thought about what he said. Why didn't I check up on them before? If I had made contact with them, they would have found out where I am and everything could have been ruined from the start. Did I wanted to be found?

"That's enough Beast Boy." Robin said to change the subject. But Beast Boy wouldn't back down.

"No! Don't you guys want to know how she really feel about us? Did she really want to know if we were alright? Or did she wanted to just hide away and not be around us anymore? She did all of this just to get rid of us!"