Facing My Fears

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Sorry for the month long update. I was really not having fun with my college classes. Unfortunately, I barely passed with a C. I'm not the type of person who likes that kind of a grade, but hey, at least I made it.

I've been off for a week now. I thought I would have posted the chapter by then but even when I don't have classes, I still end up getting busy.

Again, I apologize for the tardiness. So here's a long chapter for you all to enjoy.

I do not own the Teen Titans or any other characters that are mentioned in this story.

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Raven's POV

When I started to feel a little chilly from standing out in the balcony. I went back inside and look towards the stair case.

I don't think I want to face anyone tonight. I don't want to start anything again.

With that, I headed towards my room. I'll face my friends in the morning. For now, let them have some fun for a while. Tomorrow, all hell will break loose.

I went in my room and then head towards my bathroom to remove all the stuff I had on me. I began to take off my earings, bracelets, necklaces, and put my hair down, but before I did, I look towards the mirror once more.

Wow, I do look like someone else in a way. I look like an actual woman who wears pretty dresses and shoes. No wonder Robin would never guess it could be me. Raven would never wear such a thing.

I turn the water on and waited for it to get warm. So I begin to remove all the stuff. Once the water was warm, I begin to wash all the make up off my face. As I dry my face I began to change out of the dress and into a comfortable shirt and some shorts to sleep in.

I left the bathroom and sit on my bed and look towards the time. Wow, it's almost midnight. The music downstairs is still blasting through the halls.

I lay down on my bed and stare up the ceiling of the room. I'm trying to sleep but many thoughts go through my head. I know I'm over thinking this and I'm saying it so much, but why is it that im afraid of explaining myself. I feel like I've already said what I have to. But maybe theres just questions that my friends will ask and I don't have the answer to. Like the one Starfire asked, if I was going to come back with them. Should I go back? Do I want to go back? Do they want me back? Instead of answering the question, I ask myself questions.

I guess we'll find out tomorrow. Oh dear Azar, I hope all goes well.

I began to close my eyes and began to fall asleep.

*** Time Passes ***

*Beep* *Beep* *Beep*

I reach over the alarm clock to turn it off.

I sit up and stretch out my arms. Its 7 in the morning and I feel like I'm drained. But I still get up and head towards the bathroom to take a quick shower.

When I'm done showering, I brush my hair and change into black combat boots, blue jeans, and a black long sleeve shirt. Then I head downstairs to the kitchen.

I'm going to need some tea before all the drama starts today.

As I wait for the water to boil, I take a look at the time and its 7:30.

I'm pretty sure the others are still going to be asleep for at least another hour.

When the water was done, I pour it over the chai green tea. I wait for a while for the tea to steep.

I made some toast and grab an apple. I sit on a chair near the counter and eat my small breakfast.

I try to avoid thinking of what I will be doing today. I know it has to be done.