Misunderstood

the interview

        "What makes you interested in working here?"

        "I need a job, and I love working with other people," Loki replied, clearly nervous

        "Tell me about you past," the young woman interviewing me asked

        "Well I was raised in California, and moved here 3 weeks ago, I have one brother, we went to a private school up until we graduated,"

        "Tell me how did you get your name? I only ever heard that name once in my life and it was the Loki from Asgard, and he is dead now, thank god he was a monster,"

        "My parents found the name in a childrens book, it was there favorite book as children,"

        "What was it about?"

        "It was actually based on Asgard, it was written when it was still just science fiction,"

        "Oh that's very interesting, why Loki and not Thor or Odin or someone not evil?"

        "I like to think he was misunderstood, he wasn't evil until he craved to be respected once in his life,"

        "Do you know what that tells me as an employer Loki?"

        "No, I'm afraid not,"

        "It tells me you think outside the box, you think independently,  congratulations Loki you got the job! can you start next week Monday?"

        "Yes, I sure can thank you for time Ms. Mallwood!"

I went home and started preparing dinner for Rachel and I, I made angle hair pasta and chicken. 

        "Hello Rachel! I'm so glad you could join me for dinner tonight, you look beautiful," Loki sayed stunned,

        " Oh thanks, *giggles* I don't get that very often," Rachel blushed,

I served dinner and we chatted for a while after words, I had to tell her the same lie I told the lady who interviewed me, the one about my name. I never feel bad when I lie anymore but for some reason, I felt guilty and horrible for lying to Rachel. Maybe, just maybe she would understand if I told her who I really was if I added my past in there somehow....SHUT UP LOKI!!!! SHE WILL NEVER LOVE YOU WHY ARE YOU LYING TO YOURSELF LIKE THIS!!!! I yelled at myself why Rachel was explaining to me how she ended up in Ohio. 

        "Loki are you okay?" She asked me "you look kinda upset, tell me whats bothering you,"

        "I just miss my mother, she passed away about a year ago," It was not a lie I really did miss her at that very moment,

        " Oh, I'm very sorry to here that Loki, my condolences," Soon after that she went back down a floor to her apartment with a hand shake. I really need to stop lying to myself like this if she new who I really was she would run screaming from me....but I cant stay away from her.