☄I S T I L L W A N T Y O U☄ [PAUSED!!]

☄Chap.8☄

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*Warning!! this Chapter is going to be really sad so please if you have Depression don't read it*

Jimin P.O.V

'I was walking home. I took the abbreviation through a dark alley but walking slow. I don't want to go home. My father is probably drunk sitting on the couch. These few hours I spend with Y/N felt so good... She feels like home. After I walked for me a endless road I could saw my house. As I stood In front of the door I searched for the house key. After I finally found it I opened the door slowly. I hoped my father wouldn't hear me... But he did. I could hear him standing up from the couch and walking to me'

Jimin's Dad: Where have you been you piece of shit *He yelled drunk. His breath stank so much like alcohol*

Jimin: I was at a friend's hou-

Jimin's Dad: Guess what nobody cares because nobody loves you, and ever will!!

Jimin: I hate you*I yelled back*

Jimin's Dad: Don't raise your voice like that. you piece of shit. I never wanted you and your mother either. You are the reason she left us. Look at you. You are so ugly. Nobody would want you* He slapped me in my face really hard*

'The pain... I touched my cheek. It felt swollen. I started to cry because it hurted so much'

Jimin's Dad: Do you cry ? Be a man!* after he said that he punched me in my face. I felt on the ground because I lost my balance'

Jimin's Dad: Such a pussy. I hate you so much. I wish you never came in my life.

'With that he left me there laying on the cold floor. My hand slowly wandered to my cheek. As I felt something warm on my hand I looked at it. I was bleeding. I managed to get up from the cold floor and went in my room and locked it'

Jimin: Ahhh I hate myself so much. My father is right I wish I had never been born.*started to cry*

'I cried... I wouldn't stop I feel like nobody. I didn't want to be in this world anymore. I slowly started to walk in the bathroom. I started take off my mask, my cap and my sunglasses and looked in the reflection of the mirror'

Jimin: Look at you. You are so ugly. Nobody will ever want you. You are a nobody.

'My head slowly moved to the razor blade which was laying beside me. I took it in my hand and looked at it. I slowly started to put the razor blade between my thumb and my index finger. I rolled my left sleeve up till it reached my elbow. I moved my shaking hand to my arm and started to cut myself with full of anger and mourning. My tears started to roll down both of my cheeks while the cuts spreads pain but also a kind of satisfaction. I let the bloody razor blade fall in the sick. As I slowly opened my eyes I could blurry saw my bloody arm. I started to turn on the water tap to wash away the tripping blood from my arm. Some wound didn't stop bleeding so I took a bandage and wrapped it around my arm. I tried to calm down as good as I can. After I tidied up the bathroom I went in my bedroom. I dropped myself on my bed dehydrated  pulling my blanket to me. A single tear dropped down my self as I slowly drifted away to sleep'

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☄Please be happy guys. All of you are very special just the way you are. If you need someone to talk you can always text to me. I don't have a great live too. So I know how it feels like... how it feels like to end everything but actually Bagtan helped me the go through this sometimes. Army's and BTS are one big family that's why we all should be there for each other.☄

💜I purple you guys.💜