Haunted

0.2

I just stared out of the window. I was thinking about my life back at home and the starting of the new one. Will I make a lot of friends? I don't know..  I am scared of starting it all over again..

If  my mum didn't get that job, we wouldn't have to move.  I see small rain drops on the window and a small smile make its way on my face. I always have liked rain, it's just so calming and peaceful..

I started thinking about my mum. I've always admired her. She was kinda young, she was thirty-five. She had me when she was just eighteen. She had dark brown hair that went to her mid back. She often had it curled. She was tall and fit.

I can't lie she is the most beautiful woman that I have met,  I often wonder why she chooses to be single.

I think it's connected with my dad, and I don't blame her. My dad died when I was six.  My grandma told me that he was incredibly ill and that there was no cure for his illness.

Mum has never talked about him, and I don't ask about him I have a feeling that it's a very sensitive subject and I understand her.

Suddenly she broke me out of my thoughts, "Hey, honey.. Are you ok?" I just smiled at her and said "Yeah mum..". She mirrors my action while putting her attention on the road.

"I am sure you will meet a lot of awesome people to hang out with.. Afterall we are moving to London.." I started playing with zipper of my burgundy hoodie.

"I hope so too, I will just miss people back home.." She has a smile once again on her face. Her hair is put into a messy braid and she is wearing a blue flannel button up.  Underneath she has a simple white shirt, and she has black skinnies on.

"Honey we will visit a lot, don't worry.. Oh maybe you will find a nice guy..!" she says excitedly.. I quickly interrupt her "Mumm!" I whine, while she is laughing her but off.

"Just a suggestion, no need to get annoyed at it.." She says with a smug smirk on her face.

My mum knew that I was gay since I was young. She was the first person I told..

*flashback

I ran down the street as quick as I could. 

I just finished school and I was waiting for my new friend that I met in class,  I played with the end of my light blue shirt. Until I saw him. He smiled at me and my heart just started beating so hard that I felt like I am going to die.

Calum walked over to me and asked me "Hey, Niall! Would you like to hang out at my place? We could play some Pokemon?" All I could do was blush and nod my head. I couldn't find the words to say.

As we walked towards his house, he talked about everything while I listened to him carefully. He had just moved here from Australia, and thats so cool.

Once we got to his house, his parents were out. We decided to built a fort. We took every pillow and every blanket we could find and took it to his room.

Once we were done we were so proud of our work. We spent the next hour playing Pokémon and my heart didn't slow one bit.

I got this weird feeling in my tummy and when Calum smiled at me I looked  like a pepper. I felt weird, I was scared. What if something was wrong with me?

When he talked I couldn't keep my eyes of his lips and once it was time to leave we shared a quick hug and I took in his sense.

He smelled like chocolate and vanilla at the same time. I quickly decided that that was my favorite smell.

I was so taken back by my actions that I ran back home. All of the people on the streets must have thought that I was insane.

Once I got into the house I slammed the door and just sat down by it. I broke out crying once I have seen my mum.

"Niall, honey.. What's wrong?" I heard her ask with worry in her voice..

"Mum... I am going to die..." I cried even more because I didn't want to die..

"Niall what happened, you are worrying me!?" She asked even more worried. I felt bad even looking in her eyes they seemed sad.

Once I explained the situation to her she just laughed, which made me confused.

"Mum... why do you find my death funny?" I asked even more confused.. did she hate me? Was I annoying to her? Oh my god.. I just started even more crying.

"Come honey, I will make us a cup of tea!" She smiled down at me I just looked at her. "I will make your favorite! Mint with a bit of honey just how you like it!" I raised my head and got up.

Once she served the cups, she started talking. "Niall, this is normal. You see you got those feelings because you felt something for that boy.. and that's normal! I felt those feelings for your dad too.." she explained happily. But I couldn't help but notice her face fall down when she mentioned dad.

"Wait is that means that I am not going to die?!" She just laughed "Oh no honey!! You will just do the opposite!" I smiled at her. She got me thinking, why did I feel those stuff towards a boy.. they always taught  us that boy were supposed to love girls and girls were supposed to love boys..

"MUM I AM BROKEN!!" I suddenly shouted out. And she looked me with worried eyes.

"Niall what do you mean?" She asked with a small smiled on her face. "I am not supposed to feel stuff towards a boy!!! So why did I?" I just broke into cries again.

"Niall, honey it's ok.. you see not all of us love the different gender.. there are people who love their own and they can't help it. You see it's not wrong and you shouldn't be ashamed of who you are.." she explained with a softest voice that she could.

I just looked at her with confused eyes..  "Niall if you like boys I am fine with that. If you like girls I am also fine with that. I will always love you the same, no matter what!" She said taking my hands in hers.

A small smile showed up on my face while she wiped away the tear that was on my cheek. "You should go get ready for bed and I will be there in a moment to cuddle you!!" I just let out a laugh and went to the bathroom as quick as I could!

Once I was in bed, mum came soon enough. We lied there and I just took in her sense, she was so warm. I felt like I could stay like this forever.

Suddenly she broke the silence "Niall, honey.. you see not all of the people are keen on the idea of being Gay.. and there might be a small chance that they will complain about the people because they are special and they aren't..." suddenly she feel into a silence..

"Mum what does it mean to be Gay?" I asked her. She looked up at me with a smile "It's a name for a person who likes the same gender as them.. like if you like boys and you are a boy then you could be Gay.. but you see you could also be Bisexual and a lot of other things.. what do you say that we leave this conversation for another day?"

I just nodded and cuddled more into her. I feel asleep soon after.

*flashback over

Maybe a new start wouldn't be so bad after all!