give me a reason (jack gilinsky )

new boys in magcon

--Jacobs pov-- (whatttttt ;) )

I sighed and layed on my bed my dad was yelling at Nicole as usual hr made her stop over she was crying.

"JACOB GET YOUR ASS DOWN HERE!" he yelled I got tears in my eyes I hate when hes doing this to her. so much

I walked down to see Nicole in a corner crying fuck.

"take the bitch to your room and fuck her" he said my eyes got big and she began crying more "im going to go get more beer she better be gone by the time I'm back."

I nodded picking up Nicole and taking her to my room laying her on the bed

"I'm jot going to hurt you Nicole" I said "I'm not fucking my sister" she was still crying  "keep crying and scream so he thinks I am" I locked the door and got over top of her rocking the bed and keeping distance through the window I saw him leave and I got up she looked at me fear in her eyes "I won't hurt you I'll never hurt you" I said

"thank you Jacob" she cried hugging me

yes Nicole does hate me for a different reason. that's coz I watched my dad kill our mom and I couldent do anything about it coz I was 10! I think she's starting to forgive me.

I hugged her back

"you shouldent have to live with him" she cried

"calm down I have a plan. I bough my own house. its 5 bedroom 4 bathroom. Audrey is coming with me. you can come move with me" he said I nodded

"okay"

"come on" he picked me up grabbing his keys and running to the Car speeding away

we were driving for about 30 miunets and we passed my house about 5 ago he pulled in to a nice sized house from the house next door I saw Audrey run out and ran to me I smiled and hugged her tight.

let me explain Audrey is my baby sister she's 3. but she lives with our aunt because dad. I usually go see her every week but with magcon its been about 3 months.

"Hi baby" I smiled tears falling as I huged her tight

we all went inside Jacobs new house and he showed me around

"so you wanna move in?" he asked I shook my head

"I dont wanna leave the guys" I said

"its only a 5min walk Nicole" he said

"I'll think about it." I sighed laying on the couch "magcon is soon so were flying out to Toronto tomorrow I still have to pack plus Bart said theres 2 new people joining.".

"ohh have you even packed yet?" he asked

"nope" I smiled "flights not until 2 tomorrow" I said

"still you need to pack dumbass" he laughed I just hit him playfully

we began catching up when my phone rang I seen it was jack

"hey jack what's up?"

"its the other jack...Johnson" he said

"the blonde one right?" I said

"yeah well I was going throuh his phone and saw he hadent told you yet so I wanna"

"tell me what" I began getting shakey I hate not knowing stuff Jacob held on to me as I waited

"were the new boys in magcon. Aaron talked to your guyses manager and Bart though we were funny we got really popular on vine now" he said I looked down not knowing what to say

"oh.  uh thats great jack..congrats" I said a little less happy then I should have

"listen I know you and jack have something going on" he said I walked out of the room with jocob to the kitchen

"I have nothing with him. were simply friends. I'm dating Shawn"

"that doesn't mean you dont like him just coz your with Shawn. I see the way jack looks at you and you look at him."

"no I don't like him." I protested

"whateverrr I gotta go Sam just got here were getting high as fuuuuuck" he said I smiled

"you have fun with that" I said

"you can always join" he said I nodded though he can't see me

"maybe I will"

"you better" he said laughing then hung up

I walked back out to Jacob to see him on the couch lifting Aubrey up with his feet and laching hands I smiled taking a picture.

"hey I gotta go but I'll stop by tomorrow before the flight and say bye I promise" I said hugging Aubrey then Jacob

"okay" Jacob said  I got down to Aubrey's level

"I love you" I said she began crying I hugged her

"whats wrong baby" I asked

"I don't want you to not see me again" she cried harder

"I'll come by tomorrow I promise Aubrey" I said she nodded

"can I go home with you?" she asked I gave Jacob a worried look he knew what I ment

"Aubrey she's got things to do" Jacob said

"listen I'll come see you tomorrow and right when I get back from magcon you can stay with me for a week." I said she smiled

"okay"

"now I gotta go baby I love you"

"I love you to" I kissed her for head and stood up when Jacob hugged me

"bye sis" he said burring his head in my neck while I was on his chest I felt tears wet my neck

"I love you Jake" I said hugging his body tighter

"I love you to Nicole" he said lifti g his head and wiping tears away I smiled lightly and left getting in my car I had tears down my face

what the hell have I done?

I went back to my house whipping my tears and fixing my makeup before walking in the house straight to my room to the bathroom locking it and grabbing the blade.

"hello old friend" I whispers its been 6 weeks. and ruined.

I sliced my upper thys 6 times then cleaned the blade hiding it and washing off my thys over. I checked the weather its 49°F good and cold. perfect.

I slipped on Taylors tie-dye tank  he left in my room a pair of yoga pants and tie+die vans I picked up my keys and turned to see Taylor. fuck.

"hey" he said

"hi" I said "gotta go" he nodded

"did Bart tell you about the new kids? Shawn's not every happy"  I shook my head and went to Shawn's room he was laying in bed eyes closed headphones in I crawled on him and kissed him he kissed back and I pulled away

"hey babe" he said taking out his headphones

"hey Taylor said you were upset I just wanted to make sure you were alright " I said he shrugged

"I hate those new kids." he said

"there cool" I said he looked at me oddly

"I though you hated them?" he said

"I hung out with em there cool"

after 20m of talking to Shawn I left off to jacks.

this will be a fun night