Memories Of The Sun [Complete ]

Dragged out.

Coming to this farm was a death penalty for me, it was dreadful... nights of mosquito bites and the early chirping birds pissed me off the more. For the first weeks I lived here not to dissapoint myself, not to grant my dad, a win. He wanted to see me bent out of shape…to tap out. But my ego kept me alive, I survived.

Small towns are not completely awful though. I have come to love the peace and quiet here. Am going to miss the close friendly people, Jonny. It has been comfortable and calm. I love the weather, the fresh vegetables…am going to miss this place.

Simeon has given me the greatest feeling on earth, undeniable love. He has even got me doing crazy insane things, I for example found myself dressed seductively to distract him at work. However he ignored all my attempts without a glance... concentrating on his trees. I hate those trees! How does he even do it? Am not working because of him.

We have spent most of the time on the river, making love in the water, before carrying me all around the farm. Jonny has delivered flowers everyday with a wide smile on his face... I wonder if he can keep a secret.

Frank recently reminded me of his prohecy about how I would love it here... I hate to admit he was right. I have come to love Koboko and now they are dragging me back.

This dusty hot place has been home. Frank says the rainy season is about to start. It will save people like Simeon from watering those trees everyday. Seated on his lap, I wonder about the future we can't have... Young illogical dreams.
“what plans do you have for the future, Simeon? " he is smiling
“facing your dad and asking him to let me marry you.. ”
“what... Honey that is crazy.... ”
“am saving Vanessa...” he is talking attaching everything to his fingers like he is counting.
“before I met you, I had bought some land... It's on the outskirts of the city... am building a house that you will  like... Ever since I met you, am trying to make it yours... Your black -silver paint... Everything your liking...” Oh Simeon... I kiss him.

“Am sure I will love it.”
“is everything okay baby?”
Am crying... He looks up at me.
“Yeah, everything is perfect”
“Your sure? ” I get up

“Am…I... Am going to leave the farm for some time. ”
“what -what do you mean? ”
“I mean, am going back... my dad needs me back ... To the city… for some stuff…work…but it's going to be for a while... I will be back”  I lie as he remains silent.
“I promise I will come back”
“when are you leaving?”
“today... ” Am uncontrollably tearing up.
“okay.”

Okay? Is that all he can say? Just okay? This is practically the last time am seeing him. To my knowledge, am not ever returning, my dad controls everything about my life. Am pissed.
“what do you mean okay?”
“I mean am coming with you”
“What? Simeon... You can't... Your job...”
“I have plans Vanessa, and I will find another job.” He is shouting at me. I cup his face in my hands.
“No you can't... Listen to me... I will find a way... I will try to talk to my dad, to get you a place at the company... In the mean time, you will have to wait...please... Okay?” he nods. His eyes are narrow, unreadable. Please say something good...

I hear a rumbling car as Jonny comes running towards us.
“Ma'am”
“I know Jonny, tell Dalia, I  will be there in a minute ” He makes a wounded face, before he disappears. Not now Jonny, I don't have the time. I turn back to Simeon, hug him tight. I hate that I love him. I hate that am leaving without him... Most importantly I hate the Evans, that pig!

I kiss him softly as he caresses my cheek. Please Lord.…He tries to say that he loves me but I don't let him...i don't want to hear it. I can't.

I let go of his hand…