It's not Fine (SaTzu)

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-Sana's -

"I think I can stop you! "

I said voicelessly as my tears threatening to fall again. I really want to hug her but everytime I step in, she step back.

"Don't go any closer. Eonni~ before I go,  I want to ask you. "

I stared at her eyes lovingly but she just throw cactus on my heart seeing there's nothing I can see in her eyes.

"Are you happy? Using me for you to move on? Using me to at least, ease the pain you were feeling? I thought you love me? "

I bit my lips as I tried to hold her hand but she just keep getting distance from me.

"Where do I belong in your heart, eonni? Do I even? "

"Tzuya... I love you... "

"Please stop saying that shit! That wasn't mean for me! It's for someone else so keep that, I don't want to hear it again. "

I break down in tears as I can feel my heart scattered into pieces. Damn, so painful!

"Now I know, Words doesn't define love, it's action who actually works. Your words versus my actions. But shit! It is so painful, eonni! "

She gritted her teeth while pointing my chest.

"Tzuyu please listen to me... I love you—"

"You don't! You never did, You should say thank you instead of I love you, eonni! I did my part, if you really feel broken because of me then we're even. But you cannot stop me anymore. "

"Tzuyu~"

"One more thing eonni.  I shouldn't say this but I think I need to. "

"I never said this before but I love you! I really do. "

"Tzuya! "

I shouted as when she turned her back from me, she stood but didn't bother to look at me.

"I will wait for you. I love you too, so much! "

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