Chapter 1 Natily
I wake up to my Mom shaking me and saying, “Nat… sweetie time to get up”. I open my eyes and look at the clock and say “It’s only six-thirty…” and roll back over. Then I realize that I am late. As I rush to get my stuff together there is only one person on my mind. Her name is Katie. She is my only love. Last night my mom told me to dump her because she caught us in bed together.
“We weren’t doing anything” I told my mom when she checked on me in the middle of the night.
“You know what that is” my mother said pointing at Katie.
I just nod my head slowly fighting back tears.
“That girl is the Devil’s spawn” she’s yelling now. I grab Katie’s hand and steer her out the door into the hallway and into the bathroom where we cuddle up and fall asleep. My girlfriend ‘lives’ with us. It is like her second home. We spend more time here than at her house. Which is funny because her mom is more accepting of our relationship than my mom! But whenever, I ask her why we don't hang out at her house she makes up some excuse.
I’m still trying to figure out how to tell my mother that I am a lesbian. I told my dad when I was 10 and he told me “It's your life not mine. Do I like it? No… but you’re my daughter and if you’re happy I’m happy” my dad said over the phone. That was six years ago when Katie and I started dating for the first time. We have known each other since the first grade. We’re in High School now. I get lost in my thoughts and the next thing I know I’m at my locker trying to rush to avoid Kate. Out of nowhere I’m being hugged from behind and she says “Guess who?”
I whip around and plant a big wet kiss on her lips “Hey, do I know you?” I say laughing.
“I guess you kiss every stranger!” she says laughing which makes my cheeks flush red. When she asks “What happened with your mom?” Oh damn she doesn’t waste any time does she. What to do? I could tell her the truth and lose her forever or I could lie and keep her.
“She told me to…” I start crying when the bell rings for class.
She grabs my hand and leads me into the bathroom. When we enter there are some girls already in there. They are doing their makeup and gossiping about the hottest guy on the wrestling team. When we are alone, she hugs me and says “Baby? What’s wrong? What did that bitch tell you to do?” She says it in the most soothing voice.
“She… told me … to… end our ‘friendship!’” I say in between whimpers. She pulls me even closer and recites a love poem she wrote for me back in 8th grade…0
Dear sweet Natalie.
You are mine I am yours
For life after death doesn’t….
“STOP IT!” I scream “I know you love me and I love you, now let’s not make this any harder than it needs to be” I say tears pouring down my face.
She kisses me and says “No Nat you can’t abandon me… not like my parents…” she says crying.
I hug her and right there, in the girl’s bathroom, we make out. “I love you so much… if we get caught I don’t care. As long as we're together” she says while I am lying on her lap.
“Neither do I” I say. When we finally leave the bathroom, homeroom is over so we go to guidance and ask to see a counselor to discuss what my mother told me to do
For the rest of the day we have almost the exact same schedule so were never apart except for home room and math. Our next class is Chemistry. I started to date Katie after I had to tutor her for extra credit not that I needed it but I wanted to graduate two years early so I took any extra credit teachers offered me.
Today, we are continuing a lab that we started yesterday, I’m basically an aide in here because I go around helping kids and making sure that they understand the material but lately I’ve been up “helping” Kate by cuddling with her as she works on something that she won’t tell me what it is. I think she is trying to spell our names in DNA helices. I can’t wait to see it.
As the class end the teacher, Mrs. Cummings pulls us aside says “You two are marked absent for the day. Did you come in late, if so where is your pass?”
“We were in guidance…” Katie says. I love this girl how does she lie like that well half lie. Mrs. Cummings then looks to me for verification. Katie knows I don’t lie well under pressure but for some reason all I can think about is what my mom told me last night. That girl is Devil spawn. So I start to cry which helps our story a lot so we are free to go.
My next class is AP calculus which is the only class that we don't have together. Mrs, Pielinsky or 3.14 as she calls herself. Is teaching the class about the rules of Change & concept of limit. but I am way too busy doodling in my notebook trying to figure out what I can do about my mother. That is when a great concept begins to formulate in my head. After my time in hell is over I rush out of the class like a little kid eagerly waiting for christmas morning.
The next class we have together is our last class of the day, Gym class. Katie should be on the “athletic side” as the gym teacher called it in the beginning of the year but the kids call it the boy’s side. However, she chooses to go on the less competitive side to be with me or the girls side. As I’m walking to the gym she is attempting to sneak behind me to scare me. I see her out of the corner of my eye and just as she goes to hug me from behind I turn around making her jump instead of me.
“Let’s go in babe” I say but right as I reach to open the door my former best-friend closes the gym doors and locks it.
“Bridget... that bitch...” I hear Katie mumble.
I start to get really pissed and when I get pissed I cry. As the tears begin to form I hear Bridget laughing as hard as she can and saying “Look at the two dykes’ locked up just like God intended for them.” I lost it at that point so I kicked open the double reinforced wooden door in a fit of rage and said “What the fuck did you just say” But as I take a step closer to her and she backs up I wake up and we are in the gym, the doors are fine there isn’t even a dent and I tell Bridget “You're lucky I care about what my girlfriend thinks of me."
“Leave them alone babe” Mat says stepping between me and Bridget.
“Thanks Mat” Katie says.
“Don’t mention it” Mat responds.
Katie and I wait for all the other girls to get out of the locker rooms so we can get changed too. By the time we finish getting changed the gym teacher , Mr. Gym, Im not even kidding you his name is Mr.Gym, has already gone through “roll call” as he calls it, attendance for everyone who isn't in the military.
Katie has never seen me explode like that I am too afraid to meet her eyes but found the strength to say “I’m sorry baby, I just hate that bitch so much. Bridget and I used to be the best of friends like sisters even. But...”
“I know. I know Hun” She says hugging and rubbing my back just like how my dad used to. Which made me to sob. “What is it babe?” she asked
"It's nothing…" I stop to think "I will tell you after school"
