Love Changes Everything

What now? (9)

Jojo POV

She really did it.

She really killed him.

For me?

For us?

That man had needed to die for along time. He used to hit and rape my mother but she never told anyone. Everyone thought he was a good, loving husband. That was just a front, the truth is he's a pussy nigga who hits women. One night he beat me really bad because I didn't wanna sleep with him. He beat and cut me to prove that he was the man. My mother sat there watching like a little bitch. I never forgave her for that. I never wanna see her again honestly.

He wasn't good for my mother.

He wasn't good for me.

She wasn't good for me either.

I was good for me.

Lelani was good for me.

Once he came back and noticed my mother was no where to be found he started hitting and raping me like her. My foster mother was never home so she wouldn't have known. But she would see the dead body on her new white sheets.

We sat in the car.

No talking.

I liked the silence.

Maybe because the air was so thick that I thought not talking was the way to go?

Maybe because I didn't know if I was suppose to say sorry or thank you. So I said both.

" I'm sorry I didn't call or tell you. " she didn't respond she just kept her eyes on the road " thank you for killing him " I hated how that just rolled off my tongue.

" yeah your welcome, your gonna live with us for now " honestly that made me sad instead of happy. I always wanted to live with Lani and her mom. But I didn't think it would be because she murdered my dad.

My foster mother would find me.

What do I do then?

When we get to her house. I go upstairs and start a bath. I wanna soak in my sorrow. I wanna get every inch cleaned from his touch. The one person I really wanted was Leon, I wanted his arm to wrap around me and make me feel safe again. I don't wanna feel vulnerable to anyone touch.

He didn't stop.

My dad.

He never stopped

Even when I screamed and punched

He kept going until he collapsed on top of me.

I would spend my nights like that because he was to big to move.

I would cry all the time.

I didn't go outside.

I haven't talked to Leon for days.

I'm terrible.

My phone is gone.

My soul is gone.

Happiness? Gone.

I just wanted to be alone.

When the water touched my skin it felt good. I felt like I was getting better. I dunno how but I just did.

That night I cried into Lani's chest. I dunno what I would do without this girl honestly.