[x8]
My chaos
Chaos
[Verse 1]
All around
And within
Circles this cloud
Caving in
Around me
Realizing it's abuse
Testify against it's truths
It has me
Though
I may fight
It's often in vain
No matter what I do I cannot shake this pain
And when in doubt
It triumphs in the end
And leaves me at a place in which I can't defend
[x4]
My chaos
Chaos
[Verse 2]
Back it up
Their only words
Though these thoughts can start to hurt
I don't know if I am good
Between "I want to" and "I could"
Lies the struggle within me
And at this point I can't believe
That I may be genuine
Cause in the darkness I give in
I
Have drowned the light
And now I can't see
I'm blinded by the image that had tortured me
And now I'm chained
By choices that I make
The last of all my sanity is what you take...
[Verse 3]
The problems are what trigger all the arguments I have with me
They're blurring all the lines between reality and fantasy
And though they've plagued my mind enough in forcing me to hide
Now I've been driven to the point of unleashing my dark side
I am a demon
I lack the control
To keep steady
The impulses
Shading my soul
I will hurt you
I'll break you
And I'll violate you
I'll leave you a husk that they must never value
It's better when unwilling
Cause I'm a proper villain
And in the end its trust and all your faith that I am killing
Don't believe me?
Just stare
I'm unfaithful and a hateful little deviant who scares off anybody that can care
That bastard
That dwells
He's so full of
Himself
Just avoid him
Ignore all the lies he dispels
His intentions are dark
And you'll hardly make it
Emotions he's got that he's mastered to fake it
You'll never know that
Which is true within me
When I act like I care
It's attention I seek
And my image is bitter
I'm here all alone
Cause a demon has made this a hell all his own
[Verse 4]
Wait
Now that's enough
This is not me
No matter what you say I simply
Won't believe
You strike me down
Point the gun and shoot
And that's the sound of chaos trying to break through
[Repeated till the end]
My chaos
Chaos
Despite your words
Despite the pain
To grow from your mistakes you have to lose to gain
So I lost myself
Or so it may seem
Maybe one day I could gain a way to be redeemed
Let my chaos be redeemed
I'll prove my mind it's wrong about me...
Let my chaos be redeemed
And maybe I could find the good in me...
Let my chaos be redeemed
Destroy this deprecating view of me...
Let my chaos be redeemed...
Let my chaos be...
