Hello
Hey
So, how do I start this?
Hm
I guess I'll start from the beginning
I think I'm feeling... something? Ugh
It's getting harder to describe
When a day comes in
And a night goes out
These feelings don't give me a chance to even bottle up and hide
Cause it's enigmatic
It's a numb type of feel
Is it wrong to feel like crap for feeling nothing truly real?
Cause that's doesn't make sense
How can I feel for not feeling?
That's a contradicting statement
And I'm guilty and I'm reeling
And it's frustrating
But that, you can tell
Either feel it all or not
Limbo is a kind of hell
So maybe you can help me
Can you?
Tell me what should I be feeling right now?
Should I let it out?
Or should I brush it off?
And maybe you can help me separate the "why" from the "how"
Cause if I'm being honest I am passionless
I use to thrive on love and my art
But losing one
I think I lost the fun
And now I can't seem to find my spark
(My spark)
[Instrumental]
Empathy is what it must be
Just see
So many things that it can cost me
Trust me
Autopilot
That is what I'm acting on
I'm so emotionally confused I lost the flow within this song
Yo
What can I sing about?
What do I feel within?
Why do I play around in acting maybe I fit in?
These words are such a jumble
Is there something to their meaning?
Cause my spark could keep me humbled
Now that's what I might be needing
I need purpose
Inspiration
Motivation for my heart
Because it's like a metronome
It may be beating, but no spark
I may be living, but not lively
I just drift from day to day
It's like I'm there but also not
There is no "me" to be displayed
So
Who do you think I am?
Am I a helpless man?
Without my spark I hardly try in all the things I can
I care but also not
I'm growing numb from all this doubt
Or wait, desensitized? It's hard to find new words to figure out
So I repeat myself
Cause it's easier to do
If I can't try in other things, what's one more for me to use?
I have no spark
[Instrumental]
Look
Maybe my spark is something dead and gone
And maybe all along I figured I was wronged
And then I used that to excuse myself in giving out my all
And sheltered all of these emotions so that I could never fall
And maybe I just didn't want to try to salvage it
I was already damaged and I couldn't handle it
So I just gave it up
But you know? That isn't me
Instead of reigniting I should find another spark to free
Well
I may not care about myself somehow
But you know
There are others having worse right now
So maybe
Instead these words that one reflected me
They could be
A newer way to now project from me
Ideally
I could be a symbol for the misfits
I could spread around my wisdom for these anxious kids
Because if I was them I would have wanted it
They don't have to make the same mistakes I struggled with
Yeah!
So do you think I'm on the right track then?
Do you think that I could ever feel like how I did back then?
Do you think that I could spark a fire from within?
Can I even make a difference to a single one of them?
Yo
I think I'm feeling good
I think I'm feeling great
Cause when it comes to others you know I won't hesitate
I've found a new purpose
And I'm driven, never fade
So know that when you read these words
That I will come to aid
And if I'm the one who ever needs the help
All alone and I am lost within myself
If I am once again consumed walking in the dark
Well that's fine
Why?
Oh, it's simple...
Because I found my spark.
