The Show Must Go On

Say something

When Jordan was back at home, he was remarkable quite, he didn't even said anything about yesterday. And Christina was okey with it, she felt bad for making such a scene, she just was happy that her Jordi was back with her. If he wanted to talk, Xtina thought, he would.

And so he did the next day; 'Christina, can I talk to you for a second?';He began; 'I want to talk to you about friday over saturday.

'Sure honey, but first let me tell you, I'm sorry. Yeah, I was upset, but in the End It's not worth the fight. All I want is to be happy with you and nothing more. Max and I can come with you to NY, You could work and I could visit old friends. I love you, Jordan and ...', the words just came bubbling out of Christina, when Jordan had to make an End to it. 'Christina, stop. Christina hold on a second, let me talk!', He took a beep breath and moved on, tears already welling up in his eyes; 'I did something horrible and I hope..., I really hope you can forgive me for it, for the sake of out family. I mean we are still a family after all!'

Christina felt panic starting to arise in her: 'What have you done Jordan? Tell me.' Jordan gasped for air, the words wouldn't leave his mouth.

'Jordan, tell me! What have you done?'; Christina's voice started to rise, as she became more and more anxious, she didn't expected anything good.

'I - I- I..., the night I left this house... I was so angry, I went to a bar and drank as much alcohol as I could. And than, after that everything becomes blurry, I don't remember a thing. I just know I woke up naked, in another woman's bed. I- I- I'm sorry Christina, baby.'; Jordan could barely put into words what he had done, while Christina's expression started to loose its complete meaning, she just had emptiness in her glance.

'Honey, I'm so sorry. I was really drunk, I don't even know who she is. It didn't meant anything. I went straight home, after I woke up. Baby?'; Jordan became more and more desperate, he wanted to hold onto his wife, but she would slip right through his fingers and putting a distance between herself and him.

Christina felt pain running through her body, infecting her with sorrow, pain and an emptiness, that Jordan used to fill, her lungs felt like they were filled with water and soon she became short of breath.

Her heart was pounding, like she would suffer from a heart attack, as she just realised what these words, her husband declared, meant for her.

Her knees weakened and soon she found herself on the floor, all life sucked out of her in such a short time.

Jordan tried to help her up, but than;

'Don't fucking touch me! Ever!', Christina yelled, while bitterness and fury, started to fill her.

Christina wanted to cry so bad, but that would mean she would admit right in front of Jordan, how broken she was, because of him. She crawled away from him, while he tried to reach her, comfort her.

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'Let me in Christina. Let me in NOW! This is not a joke, Christina. Let me in!'; Jordan demanded while he hammered against the Bathroom door. Christina was what seemed like hours, curled up into a little ball like a hedgehog on the bathroom floor, all surroundings completely blanked out.

She used to do this a lot as a child, to blank everything out, mute every scream, every punch, just her own humming was left in the chaos she was surrounded by.

'Let me the fuck in, or I'm going to break this fucking door! Christina this is not in the slightest way funny.'; Jordan was in rage.

After a minute you could hear him plunk down against the bathroom door.

'Please Christina, I hate that you are in there. I'm scared you might do something to yourself, please open the door, I really don't want to call the fire department to get you out there.'; Jordan tried it in a softer way and than he heared movement in the bathroom.

The door sprung open and a fragile Christina started to beat with her small fists against Jordan's chest, she didn't really tried to hurt him, she just wanted to let all her frustration out.

'How dare you think, I would give up my precious life, just because you are a dumbass? How fucking dare you to think, I would leave Max alone, just because his father is a moron and ruined everything We had. What Kind of mother do you think I am? I did not come this far, just to give up everything now.!'; his words hurt her and sparked new fire in her, but it didn't last for too long, a moment after she sank to the floor again, completely helpless in this situation.

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