two-faced // changlix

thirty nine

seo changbin

he stayed sad, like he thought i was lying.

i stood up and lifted him up, then sat back down on my swing, putting him on my lap and hugging him tightly.

"i won't make up more excuses or lies, I'll show you that i love you" i cupped his face, he was already crying.

what do i do with a crying felix?

shower him with love?

let him cry?

play with his hair and make him laugh?

all of the above somehow?

"lix, can i make you forgive me somehow?" i wiped his tears and held his tiny hands.

"i-i already forgave you, binnie. i just feel like i don't deserve you and you're pretending you like me because you pity m-" i kissed him to shut him up.

"no, yongbok, i love you" i said in english. he was confused, but not too much, because those were only simple words.

"if you feel more comfortable, we can speak english when it's just us or when it's us and channie hyung" i smiled.
(a/n they're speaking english now)

"but bin when did you learn?" he wiped his tears and a small shy smile formed on his face.

"i started learning more when i found out that you were australian" i admitted.

"but back when we met and you found out the basics about me you didn't want to be seen with me, because of your 'reputation' or something" he was still sad.

"i'm awkward when i have a crush" i shrugged and pulled him down a bit so i could kiss his forehead.

"how is your prononciation so good?" he laughed "you're better than me"

"that's not true, you're the best at everything, especially at making my heart melt" i wrapped my arms around his waist and held him on my lap while swinging.

"so you love me?" he turned his head around to look into my eyes.

"yes, i told you, i love you, lix, isn't it obvious?"

"yeah, it kinda is..." he giggled.

...

"felix?"

"yes?" he put his head on my shoulder and looked up.

"can you stop being cute?"

"nO" he laughed evilly.

"i have an urge to squeeze cute things to death so please stop"

"old lix would've said please do it but now i actually want to live" he went back to sitting normally on top of me

i got sad. i didn't know about that. well i knew he wasn't the happiest but i never would've guessed that he thought about stuff that dark.

i put my head on his back, my cheek pressed against it and i held his hands "boyfriends?"

"boyfriends!" he said happily.

"so you want to dye your hair too?"

"yep, i'll go for black instead of blonde" he nodded to himself.

"that'll be dangerous, lix. everyone will start having a crush on you and I'll have competition"

"but i'll always pick you, binnie" he held the rose i gave him and smelled it.

"bambam helped me get that rose" i laughed "i gave him money to buy it and get it here just in time"

"wonpil helped you too, right?” he said.

"how do you know? did you-" he didn't let me finish.

"yes i found out who 'unknown number' person is... that's really cute of you, making wonpil ask me about my favorites so you can take me on a perfect date"

"i'm sorry for not knowing much about you..." i sighed.

"you'll find out more stuff the longer we're together, but promise me one thing: no more shitting. i love you and i'm not too good for you, please just understand that i'm happy with you and tell me about everything that bothers you" he said and got up.

"that's a lot of you's in a sentence" I laughed.

"changbiiiin. i'm serious" he whined.

i also stood up and took his hand "where do you want to go now, serious?"

"are we gonna adopt a child? i really want to see you being a dad, you already behave like one sometimes"

"if i had been drinking something, I would've spit it all out, i swear. why are you thinking about that already? we are children"

"well, yeah kinda" he smiled "I wanna go to school"

"what the fuck, lix?"

"YOU CURSE IN ENGLISH TOO?"
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a/n

next part might be the last one whoops idk yet