Alexandrovna

"Baby Rina"

"Bonjour Princess, your mother sent us so we could help you get dressed for your 18th birthday ceremony." Madame Bontemps had a very thin voice yet it was still very effective for a wake up call. As she opened the curtains and let the sunshine in I grumbled angrily. Waking up with a headache was something I always hated, and this time it was even harder because last night I tried alchohol for the first time. As far as I remember, I got my first kiss too.

Since I was 15, I enjoyed nothing more than masquerade balls. It has become my only runaway from the court and enjoying somewhat of a reality, which made me feel alive. I was never interested in drinking alcohol but last night was just a lot more different than anything. Tatyana, Mariya, Olga and I were always very curious girls and nothing could ever stop us from pushing to the limits. 

Never have I ever been kissed. The lips, they were soft as they can be and... gentle.

"Please madam, give me five more minutes so I can find one reason to wake up and get dressed." I tried using my pillow as a sun blocker so I put it on my head but it didn't last long till Madam took it. "I am sorry your majesty but this is highly irregular. I am not quite interested in arguing with the Duchess, so please let me help you get dressed." I tried standing up on my bed but my head felt too heavy so I fell back on my very comfy sleeping position.
"Princess!" I could see both anger and stress in Madame Bontemps' eyes so I figured not being too spoiled. Two ladies other than Madam entered my room with a blue gown which symbolized purity and nobility. "Oh that dress my mother told me to wear, I remember this." The dress was made out of pure silk and had sparkling sapphire diamonds embroidered. I just never knew that this day would come this fast.
Doors opened again just in time I got dressed and the dress looked amazing on me. I had a tiny waist and tiny legs so dresses and gowns would usually match my body. I always had a tiny appetite, which caused huge illnesses during the year.

"Good morning my baby Rina, how was your sleep?" My mom gave me a huge hug and kissed both of my cheeks. We had a relationship no mother and daughter could even dream of having. I always idolized my mom and my mom always had a special place in her heart for me. Though I was the oldest, I was her only daughter. She was only 20 years old when I was born, so we always had a close relationship that was based on understanding eachother more than anyone else.

"Goodmorning mother, glad you asked; I had a depressing nightmare." My mom looked at my dress, she looked happy but seemed to be confused as I told her I had a nightmare.
"And why is that my princess? What is wrong?" She gently caressed my cheeks with her soft hands smelling like spring flowers. "Oh nothing scary, you were just trying to find a husband for me." I laughed with stress, knowing that even my biggest nightmares could turn out to be reality one day. My title was nothing under the laws of my family. I was rubbing my eyes as I was waking up. I really was not in the mood for all of this makeup and hair thing. I was not a girly girl, instead I always loved riding a horse and gambling. Whenever my cousins were around, we would always play big and even as teens we would end up getting lots of money from uncle Nickie.

"Oh you silly girl, you don't even know what love is do you? I will just help you find true love of your life. You won't even marry someone you don't desire." She smiled at me as she opened my ponytail. My ladies started brushing my long dark brown hair. Though it was quite dark, my hair always had a good shine which was due to Madame Bontemps' patience on oiling my hair every single night. I was never into self care, however my mom was. She always made me be very feminine and that somehow gave me an appeal. I knew that 20 year old men were crazy for me. As we were talking about the events of last night, my aunt Alexandra entered the room.
"Oh my god, what a beauty she is!" She first kissed my mom and then kissed me. Both of my ladies curtsied as she entered the room, she was quite an arrogant woman so she didn't even realize my ladies. Though she always enjoyed being in the center of attention, she sometimes wouldn't care about her subjects who respected her.
She was a beautiful woman, blinded by her royal blood thinking as if she was on top of the world. Like any other of us she believed that we Romanov's were the center of Europe.
I loved her, because she always had an amazing sense of humor and always made my Tsar uncle the happiest. I could only dream of a love story like theirs, unlike my parents they were a match made in heaven. She had a unique russian accent which made her very cute and attractive, coming from the great Britain made her have different manners than any of us. She spoke an amazing english and I loved her accent. 

I knew I'd never be a Tsaritsa, but I always idolized her and dreamed as if it was something I could accomplish one day. Maybe when I was the Tsaritsa, I wouldn't be forced to do anything at all. 

"What do you think of this color? Mother said that this made my eyes pop but I would have rather worn a red gown."
She laughed as she kept touching my silk blue dress. "Oh stop talking like that, you don't even understand how gorgeous you look right now. Poor girls Tati and Mari will be very jealous." Door opened once again as the servants were bringing us green tea to wake us up. As the Empress sat on my newly made bed, my mom was trying to do my makeup. I would never put too heavy makeup on my face but I knew this time it was far more different. It wasn't only a thing I would call 'a birthday party' but this seemed quiet like a real search for my partner. Though me and Mari were the same age, her search was not even started. They would often go help the wounded soldiers and do their daily job, I was always in the court.

"Oh Xenia, I can not take my eyes off of our beloved Rina. Who could knew that she would become the prettiest girl all across the Imperial Russia." She gracefully walked to the  window and checked upon St. Petersburg. I always wondered how she felt everyday waking up to a country to rule. Though I was a lot more russian than her, she was the one to get to rule the country. 
We would never speak russian with aunt Alexandra. Our main language was french followed by english. My mom and dad spoke 5 languages fluently and I was getting there. My brothers were not the heir to our throne, so they always minded their own business. However, as a female I was supposed to find a man who had a wealthy high class family. 

To feel free with chains around my neck and my hands tied to a mission which was not for me at all.