We all make mistakes. Have struggles, and even regret things in our past. But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here now with the power to shape your day and your future.
My friends, my classmates? Well, they were all good at academics.
Me?Im just an ordinary girl with an ordinary grades.
I'm just on the bottom part of my learning experience. I hate to think that kind of learning experience because it gave me the worst chapter of my life with a creepy storm inside out.
With just one stupid mistake would change your whole perspective in life and the dream you wish to pursue.
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It is on the first semester of the academic school yeear 2016-2017 when I got deloaded due to the standard of our department. I got so disappointed when I saw my grades. I dont know what was going on me that semester when all of the things gone so wrong.
I studied as hard as I can throughout my schooling, from my kindergarten up to this recent schooling of mine. I just could not get it why did this happened to me. Failure in school, my grandmother died last February 14,2017, and my grandfather died last november 9,2017. Maybe I was just being preoccupied by the disaster and then suddenly I become so numb.
If only I could just be the most intelligent person in this run-on world of ours, then I wouldn't be this problematic in terms of my failure.
I never expected that I would just have to wait another 1 year to be graduated. Maybe or possibly there is a reason for me to be outcasted from my batchmates. Sad, but that is the reality. I would just have to make it my way for myself and for my family.
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Fiel is supposedly a graduating student this academic year 2018-2019.
"I want to study so hard to pass the exams", Fiel said.
Then the other side of her brain argued, "No just think of it girl, just sit there and relax, you will pass your exams".
She said to herself, "Why would I have to study when my other classmates didn't do the same thing"?
When the time comes, Fiel almost used her phone just doing nothing. She didn't take the remaining 4 subjects which is equivalent to twelve units because of the deloading system in their department. Instead of deciding to attend a summer class and due to the expensive fee especially if you are going to request a subject it would all cost fort-thousand pesos plus the miscellaneous fee.
Fiel got so worried and almost got depressed of what happened to her. She didn't forgot to pray but she guessed it is not yet the best time for her to graduate.
"It is okay Fiel, God has really plans for you. Just wait for it and it would be all yours". Her friends said.
"But how can make another school year without you guys"? She cried.
"I really don't know what is with me when all I think is my grades and to pass every exams we are to take". She said.
"Don't worry Fiel, we will wait for you. Just go for it. Just fight for it". Her friends said.
She think of what she is going to do by the next remaining semester she is about to face.
Honestly, she couldn't sleep at night thinking about her mistake and from having a long memory of things, she didn't even remember where she puts her eyeglasses and that made her mind in trouble.
She thought of her deceased grandmother and grandfather of how they are thankful for having a granddaughter like Fiel. The happiness in their eyes when they were still alive seeing Fiel.
Her brother who is in the seminary even told her, "Hey! What are you thinking?Is it all about your status in school? Don't worry about it okay? I will be with you so please stop worrying. Just keep going and fighting for mama and papa, for marie and reden, and even for lolo and lola. I always include you in my prayer and trust me God has a plan in your sadness today".
Fiel replied, "Hooh! I just couldn't stop thinking how did it happened with just one click. I didn't expect it is happening right now bro. Leaving another chapter and then starting another one seems so hard on my part".
When Fiel's friends gathered for their bonding she said to her friends, "Guys I would not be arround in your graduation. It would be hard for me to see you in that kind of scenario. It would be a big slap on my face if I will come".
"Nah! We want you their Fiel,we all wanted to see you their"! Rossel said.
"But we really want you to come with us perfectly". Angel murmured.
"Hmmp! It would be nice if you are their Fiel, I would be mad if you won't come". Mayla said with her voice shaking.
"I understand your situation Fiel, I so understand you my friend". Loraine said wholeheartedly.
"Don't worry Fiel, God has plans for you. This is not yet your perfect moment. Maybe you could feel more of what we are to feel when we are to graduate". Cherry said.
"I got your point guys, thank you for being with me for years. I wouldn't be in here without your help. It would be better if I studied hard so that I can graduate this school year with you". Fiel said with regrets.
"Enough of that please. We must promise to Fiel that when the time comes, no matter how busy we are, we really have to come in her graduation, okay"? Rossel said to them.
"We promised Fiel"! They all said happily.
"Yes, I know I had a hard time making decisions and I would have to deal with it. The consequences of my actions would be my strength this time around". She said with confidence.
She realized that it is not how you start, it is how you finished. It is not where you are, it is where you are going. Life must go on with or without mistakes. If you made mistakes then use it as your strength and think of it as blessing in your life.
This may not be the moment you are waiting but don't forget to hope and pray. No one should expect more of you than you expect yourself. Wait patiently.
