So, if you guys don't know me which is highly likely then hello, my name is Jacin but you can call me Jace.
I'm 14 years old and I'm turning 15 on November 15, 2018. I'm genderfluid and I prefer they/them pronouns but since those are difficult for people sometimes, it's okay to use he/him pronouns
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^ That's what I look like (yes i know i'm ugly)
I identify as aroace (Aromantic Asexual) So sometimes when I write romantic or sexual scenes it ends up really badly
I'm a victim of emotional, physical, and sexual abuse and I find those topics easier to write about and more therapeutic for me to write about, and oftentimes the abuse that comes in my writing is abuse that has been given to me.
I wrote this book because I love renjun and chenle and even though I don't really ship them I just wanted to write this
Don't worry I'm not discontinuing the book at all, I'm going to try and update all of my works soon enough but this is arguably my most popular one for some reason
Now to the main reason I'm writing this
Yes it's to apologize for not updating the book in almost a year. Yes it's because I have a life and school is being a bitch and I can't say how many times I smile for like an hour when I get a notification saying "______ liked Drowning" or whatever the hell the notification says
And honestly this book has helped me a lot
But part of the reason I haven't been able to write is because I feel like shit because sometimes I'm able to write 4,527 words (chapter 7) and other times I can barely get to 200 before I just black out and can't write anymore
I've continued to write in my spare time and I've been writing and composing musicals with similar topics to LGBTQ+ issues, abuse, suicide, and just generally getting better in life
(oh god this is getting longer than some of my chapters...)
I've also been off of writing because I have been having a lot of suicidal thoughts in the past year, and sometimes it hurts writing a book about suicide when I am going through it. I wrote a song for one of the musicals and it has bits and pieces of my own suicide notes in it, and it hurt writing that and it hurts writing this book along with my Jeno fanfic, which has a bit more of the thoughts of loneliness I feel than this one does.
All in all, I'm just very sorry it has been forever since I updated, and thank you to everyone who has read this book and I love you all so much. If you want to talk to me then my insta is @t.jace_ and if you don't have insta then feel free to DM me, but it might take forever to respond
