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OH FFS

Hey Guys, Red Here.

Oh boy am I stressed about a lot of things.
Not counting the fact I'm at college six days a week then at work afterwards three days a week and they have taken OVER MY LIFE!

I won't be able to update this weekend like I normally would with my new 'schedule'. I normally explain why in the profile message boards why but honest truth, I can't explain it very well with the two-thousand character limit the message board gives you.

Okay, let me explain why I can't update this weekend. This may even affect NEXT weekend btw.

So as most people know I'm disabled. I'm ill mentally and physically. Hell, I've been in and out of WHEELCHAIRS. HOSPITAL and SURGERY since I was FIVE years old. Well in the UK, South East area of the Uk that is, the people in charge of giving out the title of 'disabled' and giving out money to help us because WE CAN BARLEY FUCKING LIVE are called 'PIP'. Well, their longer name is 'Personal Independence Payment'. Yes, Red kinda works but it's not a complete full job because I have doctors from all over saying I medically can't work.

So Red volunteers at an art charity that help and work with lots of children, many I meet are those who are ill and disabled. I also help out with paperwork because I'm good at that stuff and I'm normally bored at the weekends. On top, the owners of the charity are FAMILY FRIENDS who are always in need of more staff, plus they let me help out there when everywhere else would say no due to doctors fully stating I cannot work and won't let me until THEY say so. It's a pain in the ass honestly but if I had a proper job every day of the week like normal people I would be in a coma.

Yeah, it's happened to me before. Red will never try doing certain jobs ever again. Well, the end of last year I finally gained my fucking disabled title back. Because it was taken from me due to the fact that I could walk better than I used to. Yes, the government think just because you can walk a little better and more than normal you are fit to go out there and do shit yourself instead of bothering to help you even A LITTLE. So took me nearly dying for them to go "shit we should help her out".

I had gotten a two year long 100% disability returned to me. Since my illness is known to get better with certain people (it KILLS people too by the way) they have to check up on me every two-three years just to see how I'm doing and if I need more money, less money or extra help around the house etc, etc. Well, fuck me because instead of waiting until the END OF NEXT YEAR like they meant to do, I'm seeing them this weekend and NEXT weekend. They want to have a 'meeting' to talk about my 'claims' as they put it.

You see the UK Prime Minister is a bitch as it is and hates disabled people. She's made it to where people DYING FROM CANCER can't gain help from disability because she believes people who are DYING should just 'get over it' and 'just go work'. God this woman doesn't even believe in mental illnesses and somehow runs this country. Once out the EU fully the UK will go downhill so fast it will be the end of this country and many of us will die because we let something do what she pleased with us.

But the rules of being disabled, getting help, getting money (mostly used to pay for medical stuff and medication anyway) are very tight. Like EXTREMELY tight. Like hell, I know people who are worse than ME and lost their disability because they helped someone out in their old workplace. Some lost it because they did GARDENING or HOUSEWORK aka cleaning, cooking etc. It really is hard to get this help. It doesn't help that people WHO DON'T need this help lie and pretend shit to get the help.

I'm being serious I know people who only have a small problem that didn't affect the fact they did work, they could walk fine and for real HAD NO MEDICAL PROBLEMS come to me telling me how they 'cheated' the government and FAKED being ill to get this help. That is wrong. I HATE the fact I need to ask PIP for help. I HATE IT. I cannot medically help it since the doctors took all my ability to have a job, I'm in and out of wheelchairs, I need help with paying bills and medication etc.