This chapter will have things involving depression, hurting yourself and having suicidal thoughts. If you're not comfortable with that please do not read. It is only a little bit of it but if you don't like stuff like that please do not read.
I felt bad about not telling V about what happened when I was younger but I'm not ready to. I don't even know if I ever will. I'm difficult. I know I am. I want to trust the boys especially since there my new family. But it's hard for me to trust people, it's always has been. My past is really tough but my parents always made it better. They didn't care if I was a trouble maker. My parents were the only ones who knew there was a good side to me. Everyone tried to prove them wrong. There was only one person besides my parents who knew that I was a good person. That person was my grandma. She would always tell just because I act tough doesn't mean that I am. I was always confused about what she meant by that since I was so young and I still don't understand. Too bad I'm not with her right now. I wish I was with everyone who actually loved me not the people who barely know. Escaping this world would be the best thing ever. Sometimes I hurt myself but someone always stops me from going any further. That's why I have to run away from here so I can actually finish everything.
So I can finish all this suffering, pain, and endless depression.
That's what I have to do in order to be free from this world. That's what I need to do to finally be happy. I can finally get away from all the gangs and mafias. I'll be safe for once. I won't be hiding and being scared. I will finally feel free from all this.
I'll be happy once again.
Magical time skip
It's late and I'm sneaking out of the house. I haven't even been here a full day and yet I'm sneaking out. All the boys are asleep so I'm not worried yet. I just don't want them involved. My life is filled with crime but I only do it because I was forced. Now it's a habit that I can't get out of. It's a virus that never goes away and if it does it always finds a way to come back.
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