"I-I-I...um I think I need time. Like I need to think about it I'm sorry" I said nervously "It's ok don't worry about it take as much time as you need" He calmed me down We went to the security cameras and looked at that night. I hated seeing the footage and seeing me look so unhappy at my own party. It was so sweet of Jesse to throw a party for me I just wish he had wanted to do something where it was only us like a nice dinner. I just wish that night wasn't such a mess for me, hanging out with Kian was really nice but everything else sucked. We looked at that night and saw him walk into the room alone then in another camera for another room we saw Olivia say something to the girl. We couldn't hear her but we saw her point to the room and then we read her lips to try to tell what she said it looked something like "I need you to get him to cheat on Brea" it seemed like the girl didn't really want to but Olivia just kept asking her. I was shocked and hurt I mean I know Olivia didn't like him but I never thought she would do something like this. I don't even know what to do. "I'm so sorry" "I don't even know what to do" I said in shock "Well maybe cut Olivia out of your life" he said trying to be humorous but failing We walked to the living room and it was kinda awkward for a little bit. "So I know this is probably bad timing but do you know if you wanna get back together or not" He said out of the blue "Yeah" I said flatly "You wanna get back together?" He sounded excited and confused "No I mean I decided and I don't wanna get back together" "Oh um why" He said sadly "I don't think we're right for each other. We should've stayed friends. I'm sorry it's just if we got back together I don't think I'd really be happy" I said honestly "Yeah I understand" He said looking down "I think I should get going" He left and I didn't say anything. I think I'm just gonna cut Olivia out of my life but at the moment. This is such a crappy time to be alone. I decided to call Kian. It rang for a little bit and then he declined. I got a text Kian- hey sorry can't talk right now we're filming I'll call you back when we're done I didn't think I needed to answer so I left him on read. I'm just sad because it feels like my life is falling apart and I'm loosing people I care about. I should talk to Olivia about what happened I guess. I walked downstairs to find Olivia. "I know you're probably heartbroken but he just wasn't right for you." She said sympathetically "You set this all up" I said angrily "What do you mean" She asked confused "You set it all up for him to cheat on me and for us to break up and for it all to fall apart" I said getting more and more angry as reality hit me. "Please calm down. I'm sorry I mean it but he wasn't right for you" She explained "If he wasn't right for me then we would've broken up in the future and you didn't need to do that" I was on the brink of tears "I know I just wanted to do what was best for you-" "And that was to make my boyfriend cheat on me" "I'm sorry" She pleaded "Whatever I just want to be alone" I said calmly "Ok I'll get going again I'm really sorry" She said grabbing her stuff and heading out the door. I went to my home studio and decided to write some songs to make me feel better. *3 hours later* I woke up in my studio, I guess I fell asleep while I was working. I checked my phone and had 5 missed calls from Kian. They were all pretty recent. incoming call from Kian I answered the call "Hey I'm so glad you answered I was worried. I'm sorry I didn't call back sooner I completely forgot to" He said sounding kinda panicked "Its ok I fell asleep in my studio and just woke up" "Oh sorry did my phone calls wake you up" He apologized "No no you're ok" "So why'd you call are you ok" He asked "Yeah I'm fine I guess I mean me and Jesse are officially done which is a bummer and apparently Olivia set him up to cheat on me so I don't know if I can even stay friends with her but we've been friends for so long you know" I ranted "Yeah I understand that really sucks I'm sorry" He said sympathetically "but there's this party we are going to tonight if you wanna come" He said changing the subject "Ok what time should I come over" I asked "Um 8 I guess and then we can drive over to the party" "Who's gonna be there" "Well Jc, Chelsey, Fran, Dom all them and other people I don't know but I promise you'll have a good time and there's gonna be a lot of people you know" He explained "You better be right because I'm not much of a party person" I laughed "Ok see you soon" He said "K bye" I said and hung up Great now I had to figure out what to wear. I really hope this party doesn't suck and I'm not miserable. I'm normally not nervous for party's but this feels different for some reason. I'm definitely over thinking this. How am I gonna figure out what to wear all alone. I decided I should call Fran so we can get ready together.
She showed up at about 6:30 and we started looking for something to wear in my closet cause I told her she could borrow something of mine.
It took us 30 minutes to both find something, of course we messed around a lot throughout the time.
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I didn't want to wear anything too extravagant. We did our hair and makeup and then drove to Kian's house though we left a little late. We got to Kian's house and talked for a little bit before we left. The car ride was filled with singing and messing around which helped calm my nerves. We showed up to the party and it was filled with people. I walked in with Fran and Kian and before I knew it I was only with Fran. She ended up running into some of her friends I didn't know so now I was just sitting there awkwardly. I decided to go get a drink. "Hey oh my god I know you don't know me but I'm a huge fan um my name is Kristen" She said panicked. She had dyed dirty blonde hair and brown eyes "Oh thanks" I said awkwardly "Um if you don't mind can we take a picture" "Oh yeah sure of course" I said kindly We took the picture and then kept talking. It turned out we had a lot in common and she was really nice. A guy with dyed blonde hair walked over who I assumed to be her boyfriend. He introduced himself and Scotty. We all started talking and the night wasn't too bad so far. We heard a loud sound and saw a flame thrower. I turned back to them and they both had a funny look on their face while I was confused. "That's our friend David, he got a flamethrower and now he's just obsessed with it" Kristen laughed "Sounds like fun" I remarked sarcastically
