Bad things only happen

2

I woke up to the familiar scenery of the hospital, I had been there several times that you can even call it a second home for me.

I scrunched my nose at the strong acquainted antiseptic smell present at all hospitals.

"Thank God you are awake" A voice said from the entrance of my hospital room.

I turned my head to see a dark haired lady looking at me. Two buttons of her grey shirt were out of their holes and she looked tired.

"Who are you and what are you doing here" I asked in a tired voice.

She stood from where she was sitting and she started walking towards my bed.

The features of her face became more clearer, she was asian(I mean asian girls are easy to recognize), she had a very cute and innocent face and she looked like she was the same age as me or slightly older.

"Ehm are you okay now, you were hit pretty hard" She looked worried

Her english was not clear but It was enough for anybody to make out what she said.

"I was hit pretty hard? I was asleep for how many days" I asked her sighing.

"Two days" she answered almost immediately.

My ears shot up
"Two days? Not two weeks? Not two years but just only two days?" I was disappointed.

I remembered all the incidents that happened the whole day I had the accident. I closed my eyes as the disgusting pain came tumbling back piercing my heart.

She must have noticed my face
"What happened to you?" She sat beside me on my hospital bed and her soft hands stroked my face.

It was like her hand contained some magic because my pent up accumulated unshed tears came rushing down that moment.

I looked at her face
"I can't just seem to die...can I" She looked shocked

She hugged me immediately.
"Why would you want to die sweetie, why?

"You can't understand Asian girl....you can't understand"

"Asian girl?" She smiled sadly.

"My bad...My name is Gale kim and how do you know I'm asian"

"Well I mean it's obvious with your face and intonation" I answered her shrugging.

"Oh...okay, my mum is Korean but my dad is American...so I'm half Korean half American and I'm Eighteen years old"

"Mine is Lily Anderson and I'm same age as yours" I wiped my tears off my face.

She held my hands
"Why do want to die Lily......Everybody is trying to get by this days, to survive"

"I can't do it anymore Gale, it's suffocating"

"Tell me about it....you can trust me" Gale said rubbing my back soothingly.

I looked at her innocent face hoping she would last long than the other ones.

"It all started when I lost my parents when I was twelve years old"

****Flashback****

Two weeks after leaving the hospital, my parents were buried.

At the funeral, I couldn't see anything or hear anything they were doing they were doing then because my eyes were blinded from my tears as I cried my eyes out throughout the funeral.

My uncle and his wife approached me where I was sitting down, sobbing.

"Hey Lily, we are sorry about your parents" Uncle Mark started.

He looked at his wife and she nodded. He turned back to me
"So we're letting you stay with us. You will go to your school too" He continued

"Okay" I croaked. I mean what other choice do I have.

***End of flashback***

"I didn't know that was the worst choice I would ever make in my life" I said with tears streamung down my face to Gale who was holding my hands the entire time.

I remembered the beatings, the abuse, my broken bones, swollen eyes as a familiar feeling run through my body, my breaths were becoming short and quick, my head was pounding rapidly, my lungs hurts real bad and everything was becoming dizzy. My panic attacks were coming back.

Gale shouting "Lily Lily what's wrong" was my last memory before I passed out.

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"Dad she's waking up" Gale's voice said as I opened my eyes slowly.

I saw a middle age man wearing a doctor's overall. Gale's dad?

Gale rushed over to my side
"Lily are you okay...I was very scared"

I noticed she had changed her clothes and her face looked fresh.

"I'm sorry, how long was I sleeping?"

"You passed out for 10 hours" The man doctor Gale called Dad replied me.

"Your state of health is very bad, I'm sure you have been given drugs for your panic attacks but you've not been using them....why?" The doctor continued

"Ohh that, I tossed it away already...who wants to live long anyway" I murmured the last part to myself.

"What?You don't care about your body, your well-being?" Gale's expression shows that she can't believe it.

"Because I don't like drugs and besides I will gladly welcome my panic attacks, it makes me sleep a long time without scary dreams"

Gale sighed "Dad please give me a minute with her"

As soon as her dad went out of my room. She stood up from where she was sitting.

"What the hell is wrong with you, you could die you know"

I smirked "I would welcome death with both hands, but it seems the scary death is afraid of me"

"Are you joking right now?" She held her head with both hands.

I flared up "Hey what do you know about me Gale, if you need someone to babysit just tell ur momma to make one for you"

She looked at me with sad eyes "My mom died two years ago"

My head shot up "Oh... I'm so sorry Gale, I was insensitive"

"I know we just met Lily, but I feel like we are friends already and I care a lot about you....I know you've been probably hurt but you should try to get through it, know that what you've experienced is still a lot better than some people out there"

"Trust me Gale, you would be disgusted if I tell you what I've experienced"

"Okay then tell me, I will hear everything and I will help you out of it"

I looked at her. I liked her already but I just hope I won't endanger her with my bad luck.