*Triggering*
I love my boyfriend. But his fame impacts me a lot. His fans hate me. I'm either a slut, ugly or not good enough .
Grayson doesn't know I cut. My thighs are full of scars and my wrist as well. It's winter right now so, there were no questions as to why I wore hoodies and sweatpants all the time.
Tonight, Grayson and his brother Ethan had a YouTube party to go to, and Gray wanted me to come.
Already not feeling it, I just got dressed. Tight black jeans cut at the knees , black long sleeve shirt that revealed my shoulders and my Christian LouBoutin red bottom heels.
On our way to the event I looked at Grayson driving, he had on a black button up shirt with brown pants, so handsome. *we get there*.
So many influencers around taking pictures with fans. Of course Gray and Ethan were stopped a million times. Even a few fans took pics with me .
Before I knew it I felt someone drag me by the hair all the way to the parking lot and push my body onto the floor. 3 Girl's surrounded me and began to punch the shit out of me .
"Stay away from Grayson you slut"
"Is Ethan next on your list"
"I bet you only wanted fame, fucking cloutchaser"
They all muttered these things while beating me up. Soon they all took off. I was left there. And just decided to Uber my way home. This is not the first this happened. I just don't tell Grayson cause I don't want him to turn against his fans, the people he loves the most.
Back home I went into the restroom. I threw my phone on the floor, Grayson called 13 times and there were messages.
I cried, the pain of all the hate and constant threats were overwhelming. I wrote Grayson a note. Explaining why I did what I did, and that I love him, he was the reason I fought .
I grabbed all the medication in the house and put about 5 of each. I had 30 pills in my hand. But I heard the front door open.
" Y/n ! Are you here ! " Gray yelled.
The bathroom doesn't have a lock. I stood in the corner . Gray opens the door.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING" he yells and sits on the floor with me .
I started to cry. Bringing the pills closer to my mouth. He grabs my wrist , noticing the cuts .
"Y/n please talk, I can help you" he choked up, with tears in his eyes.
I shook my head and kicked him away, swallowing every single pill.
" NOOOO " Gray yelled hugging my body.
Everything was going black, I could feel the beat of my heart go slower , slower and slower.
*Graysons pov*
Her eyes began to close , I quickly grab my phone and call 911.
Why didn't she tell me. Seeing her blacked out and lifeless, made me go mad.
She also looks like she's been hit. I held on to her body crying. Rocking back and forth .
"It's okay Yn , you'll be okay and when you awake, I'll stop holding off" I pulled out a box from my pocket .
"When you awake you'll have this rock on your finger , and you'll be my beautiful wife , we'll have many kids ... , just please don't go " I cried on her shoulder .
The paramedics bust in. They found us and took her body in a gurney . I rush with them hopping into the ambulance.
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A/n
There will be a part 2 next . :) thank you for 180 reads !!! Please comment vote or share <333
Xoxo
Alexandra
