There was no possible way, I'm seeing this guy. He looks exactly like someone from my dreams. Someone I've wanted for time, but time never let me see him...
I quickly got out of the trance as Kate tapped me lightly on the shoulder "Hey, uhm. We finished, wanna go meet up with Sam?" I quickly nodded, trying to take a last look at the hot guy. He was gone. Fuck.
Kate quickly noticed me being offput by something. "Hey, something happened? You seem in not-such-a-good state."
I had a deep sigh to myself, I could usually talk to Kate for anything but I was a bit hesitant on this one. Would she think, I'm a weirdo for liking a senior? Meh. "So, uhm. I saw one senior and instantly fell in love. I don't know his name or anything though."
Kate looked at me in a shocked-excited expression. "Dude, that's great! You might finally get a shot at this dating thing." Oh, Katie. How simple you made all this sound. He may aswell be straight, and that nulls all my chances out so I'll be really careful.
"It's nothing much. I don't even know him yet, his personality may aswell be trashy." I answered, looking to the side, with this sad mindset in my head. I knew it was impossible, I knew that he probably doesn't and will never know of my existence. But I'll never listen, not even to myself. So I'll try.
Fast forward near Sam's school. She was dressed up like an old lady, oh gee. It looked kinda cute and kinda bad at the same time. I told her about my crush aswell and she was all up on it. "Omg, when is your first date? What about your first kiss?!" She got so excited it's cute. She shipped me and him. Finally, we made up a nickname for my crush. Fire Boy. Cuz he was so hot. Obvious, right?
We all went to Sam's house. She had to change her outfit up. Kate had tried to make up some plans for me meeting with Fire Boy. "So like, you don't even wear glasses, but one day you'll wear them and bump into him. You'll drop your glasses, as he goes to pick them up, you literally slap his hand on and run off with him into the eternal sunset." I giggled at that thought, Kate knows how to cheer me up even in these situations.
"Very creative, I love it." I said jokingly, as it wasn't a plan at all. But I've created scenarios in my head already, that may go my way. Y'know...if it just maybe wasn't in my head.
"I'm here, lovelies!" Sam screamed out the front door with her stylish 80s mom look.
Well, we went out and did the usual stuff we do. Sam went home first and than Kate sent me home.
Tommorow was another day, another day I might see him, another day that I might talk to him, another day that I might...just feel loved, or another day I'll do nothing and feel like a burden. That night I had a lot on my head and it all felt very tiring. I felt the pressure of my eyelids as they closed and I calmly feel asleep...
I never wanted it to be this way,
Am I really okay,
Should I just burn away?
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Watch me Burn (BoyxBoy)
RomantizmNick, a young boy has moved to a new school and he's a freshman with a young innocent heart. He has his best friend, Kate, there with him. Freshman life as a gay boy is hard for him as he tries to hide it. He does succesfully so, until on the first...
