Until We Meet Again

Death

PART 1

Until We Meet Again

Judge me as you may, I chose to stay anyway.
Today marked the twentieth day since we last talked. I did not know what had gone wrong. When did it all started. It was too late when I realized that it was a sign that you will be gone forever. And here I am in the rainy evening, in front of your grave. I am looking at your picture and crying to the pain inside. How I had missed you!
"Lisa, let's just go home. The weather will get worse!"
"How long have you been here?" I have not heard Noah approaching me earlier. I was too numb to notice everything these past few days.
"Just come home with me, please." He said.
"Sure. Just a sec." I placed my bracelet on his grave. That one thing which reminded me so much of him. And our good times together.
"Want to grab dinner first?"
"No, thanks. Let's just go home."

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"Noah... I think I'll just crash at his place. He wanted me to do stuff."
I had to admit that I could not move on after his tragic death. Not now, nor forever. If only I could hold him a little bit longer, be with him long enough to tell him how much I loved him...
"You know I'm okay with that idea. I don't want you to feel bad about it. It was never meant to be that way, anyway!" I knew he was mad!

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I asked Noah to go. Tonight was all about you. I was not going to let anyone else got in our way tonight. I stood there, in front of your door, caught up with my breath. The memories that still lingered felt real. I could not breathe, holding back my tears. It was indeed a very hard goodbye. I was sorry I left. I was sorry I did not listen to you. I was sorry for the harsh words I said. I did not mean to hurt you. I broke into tears and finally open the door.

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I was glad that you left everything the way it was. The only thing missing was you!
I changed into your pajama and lit the night lamp on your working desk. I gone through all your works on the table and I found a letter you addressed to me. Unfortunately I did not have the courage to go through it tonight. Not tonight! I put it aside and switched on your laptop. Then I clicked on our pictures folder and watched them slide after slide. Reliving the memories that you left behind.
And then...

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This is a dedication to all mental illness survivors.

YOU ARE STRONG! YOU CAN SURVIVE THIS! SENDING ALL THE LOVE ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️