Growing up as Alison Christ

Growing up Alison Christ

The pattering of feet while everyone's running around searching for room 11. Why you may ask, because on that cold night something magnificent was happening. The room was flooded with friends and family waiting for them to reveal the child. At the top of her lungs she screeches (while still in pain and agony) it's a girl. This girl, born on the cold night of July 24 2001, was going to be and do things that others would only dream off.Growing up she wasn't the particular kid, she didn't yell or scream, she kept to herself and actually listened to what you were saying or just in general until, she met Megan. Her and Megan were like twins and when they were together they were inseparable and when apart (which wasn't very often) they were constantly talking on the phone.Through kinder and school they stuck by each other they went through thick and thin and a fair share of dilemmas. But now they were worried that troubles might start, they were heading into high school. They weren't scared off that they were on opposite sides of the school it was the fact of they meeting new people and suddenly not having time for each other.It was only a week into my first year of high school and peer pressure started to take effect. Suddenly I was doing things that I would never of done like wearing short shorts and ditching class. But somehow through all this I managed to stay close friends with Megan. Eventually we started to hang out more and my pryorits started to become more clear and I was back on the straight and narrow. Megan had mentioned to me a week later that the school leader positions had recently opened up to people willing to start a campaign and run for school leader (at least that's how we thought it happened), and strongly encouraged me to start a campaign and run. Turned out that the system changes when you move up to high school, you don't run a campaign but people suggest you and forward it to the school council. It may have taken four weeks but the outcome was truly amazing. I had received a letter saying that I was greatly encouraged to step up as school leader. The next day when I returned to school I marched to the office and politely told them that I graciously accept.It seemed that I was basically walking around with a target on my back, ever since I became a school Leader everyone has been talking about me. It started simple like my clothes were trash, but in time it slowly started to escalate, and eventually I started getting letters and notes questioning my sexuality. To me it felt really strange because I had basically gone from being invisible to being viewed and judged as a celebrity (might be over exaggerating a little). During this I had my best friend by my side and spent most nights on the phone to her in tears. She suggested to me that I should start to seek help, but as those words slipped from her lips I started to panic, she eventually managed to calm me down and told me to write some poems. When I did this it felt so natural it was like me talking through the paper. The first one just got me so excited I remember exactly what it said it read " I know I'm not perfect, I know I'm not skinny, I know that I'm not who you want me to be, but I am who I want to be". Even though I was doing this it still managed to bubble up inside until I had enough I had decided that I would read my poem out and answer all their questions and my mind. The day had finally come I was going to tell them who and what I really was. You could say that I was putting my monster to bed, I had told Megan what I was going to do the night before just before I went to bed. I turned my phone on and all I here is buzz buzz buzz all my notifications finally coming through. All these texts saying "do what makes you happy" and "you go girl" all from Megan. Then the time finally comes, I stand up ready to speak and clear my voice. I clear my throat once more and settle my nerves and say " I know I'm not perfect, I know I'm not skinny and I know that I'm not who you want me to be but I am who I want to be". Then for a moment I stand their I stood there trembling in fear and I say " If you have something to say to me say it now as I am sick off all the letters and the whispers about me as I walk down the corridors of the school". The room suddenly fell silent until one kid raised his hand and asked me about my sexuality I aggressively reply (obviously furious) "YES I AM GAY, why, why does everyone suddenly want to know about me so what if I am gay it is who I am and it is who I want to be so just leave me alone". Just as I say that not even five seconds later a second hand raises, it was Megan she asked if i was going to change the way I act because I was now open about my sexuality, I told her that I would never change the way I act because I would still be the same person just that my sexuality preference was different. That night I went to bed and everything with life was perfect but the fear of not knowing how people will react. After yesterday's episode I was extremely nervous to go back to school but I did. As I walk through the gates it was like time had stopped and everyone was looking at me. The bell would be ringing soon so I went to find Megan, I eventually found her sitting in the IT room. As I walk up to her to say hey an announcement rang over calling me up to the office. I quickly dash up to the office (in fear that I was in trouble). I get told that after snack I am to go see Sarah Murphy (the principle). Time passes as I ran to class I sat in math curious of why I needed to see her, the whole thing made me nauseous. At 11 o'clock the bell rings for everyone to go outside, well except for me I will be sitting with Miss Murphy probably discussing my behaviour yesterday. I start to make my way up to the office, when I arrive miss Murphy is their waiting for me. She takes me into her office and hands me a sheet it read "the stress of bullying and coming out written by Jain Morgan". I ask her why she was handing me this and all she said was "I know it's stressful about being open about who you are, and that's why we have put you into counseling". My hand start to tremble I had always thought that counseling was for weirdos. It took me a little while to get used to the idea but I eventually said thank you. The next few terms went by with no problems or complications and flew quite smoothly. I was now in term four and was quite happy my grades were up and nobody was pissing me off. Until, Megan rang me up and was screaming at first I thought she was dying but turned out she got a boyfriend. Apparently they were real happy together but she was started to get a little worried. He started to not answer her calls and wouldn't text her, he just seemed to distant. I had had enough of her on the phone in tears to me so I made it my duty to go deal with this. The next day I went over to his house, his mum invited me inside and told me he was up in his room I walked up the stairs and opened the door, but what I saw was truly disturbing. I here laughing and giggling and then I see his STICKING HIS TONGUE IN SOMEONE THAT WASN'T MEGAN. I scream and run and tell Megan what I saw and she immediately broke up with him. The last day was today next year I would be just another nobody and I was okay with that, I didn't enjoy all the attention on me and I didn't feel comfortable being in that position anymore. But the day wasn't all good the day was going to turn terrible. Megan suddenly told me that she was moving schools and homes, it was if time had stopped and for a moment it felt like a piece of my soul was missing. I fall to the ground and weep the tears slowly start to pour out of my light blue eyes. Megan body slowly falls to the floor to comfort me as I slowly and quietly weep. It felt like I had just lost my soulmate or the cheese had fallen off my cracker. But I knew when the time had come she would always be my best friend, No matter what would become between us we would always belong with forever and ever together.