"What were you guys talking about?" Jungkook says cheerfully as he walks in.
"N-nothing!" I blush profusivly.
"Are you sure sweetie?" My mom winks at me, and I glare at her. Jungkook looks confused.
"It's really nothing!" I repeat glancing at my mom.
"Oh, I should get going by the way." She says. "Bye Jimin! I love you. Keep him safe Jungkook." She winks at me before leaving.
Jungkook sits next to me on the bed.
"A month, huh?" He says as he sighs.
"Yep." I frown. "I don't want to be here."
"Maybe they'll let you out if you have a fast recovery." He smiles a little.
"Yeah, hopefully." I sigh.
"What am I going to do without you? I'm going to be so bored!" He lays his head down on my thigh and I laugh.
"Do what you always do. Ditch class and pull ladies." He suddenly grabs my hand.
"I want to ditch with you!" He whines. Luckily he can't see me blushing.
"I'm sorry..." I say. His head shoots up.
"Don't apologize! I should be apologizing. I'm the one who got you into this mess." He looks down.
"No you're not. It's my fault I should've been more careful." I reassure him. It really wasn't his fault though.
"Hm." He seems upset.
"How do you think things are going to be without me?" I ask sheepishly.
"Terrible. I fucking hate my life. You're the only good thing that's happened." I don't think he's realized what he just said.
"Not your mom?" I ask.
"She doesn't give a fuck about me. All she cares about is money, alcohol, and partying." He starts getting angry and I try to calm him down.
"I'm sure she cares. I do too!" I smile.
He smiles back.
"Sure I guess." He looks at me.
I look back and we end up staring at each other a lot longer than we're supposed to. I cough.
"Oh! Uh..." He starts.
"I'm going to take another nap." I say as I yawn.
"Oh, ok. Good night!" He smiles.
"Bye Kookie." I say before closing my eyes.
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Jungkook's POV
I see Jimin slowly start falling asleep. He looks like an angel. I take a few seconds just to admire his facial features. I can't believe I used to bully him. I frown at myself.
I feel like shit. I should take a break for now. I leave the room and I make my way to the bathroom.
I reach the bathroom after a while of searching and I walk inside. I rinse my face off with water. I stare at myself in the mirror for a while and I start to think.
"What's wrong with me?"
My thoughts start getting worse. I'm so frustrated with myself. I feel so bad for the shit I've done. I apologized but I still feel horrible. Now I'm starting to develop feelings for Jimin? This fucking sucks. He could never like someone like me.
Tears start forming in my eyes. Why is everything so difficult for me? Why can't my life be normal? Why can't I be normal? Why do I cause everyone so much pain? I guess I deserve the way I'm feeling right now...
I decide to leave and go home. As I leave the bathroom, I ignore everyone's stares as I walk out with tears down my face.
I quickly rush out and make my way home.
I get home after a long time walking, and head on inside. Of course, my mom isn't home. I feel like I'm going to have a break down.
I have nobody else to take care of me. I'm so lonely. And useless. And stupid.
My thoughts start racing, becoming worse and worse...
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TRIGGER WARNING - SELF HARM
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I can't do this anymore. I walk to the kitchen and grab a knife.
I pull up my sleeves and make a line down my wrist. Why is this relieving? I keep going until I realize what the fuck I'm doing.
I look down in horror. What am I doing?!
I become even more frustrated, and I yell out in anger.
Suddenly, I pass out on the ground.
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Authors Note: I'm so sorry this chapter is so short! I'll try and upload more sometime after school tomorrow! ♡
