First Glance|| J.JK

Something

You were the fallen leaves in my Autumn,and the blazing heat in my summer. You were the fresh blossoms in my spring ,and frosty snowflakes in my winter.

You were the sugar to my tea,and the butter to my bread. The lights to my room, and the sole to my shoe.

You were the balm to my lips and beauty to my eyes. The soft hums of birds and low whispers in my head.

You were my undivided pathway,leading to surprises. My bumpy road that never let me fall,and the horse to my carriage that didn't have to be told.

You were my ride to peace, high up cloud9. The Windows to my bedroom where I could always dream.

You were the colour to my canvas,and the kimchi to my ramen.

You were my sunlight and rain, storm and rainbow.

You were the ink to my pen,and the words to my paper.

You were the cocoa beans to my hot chocolate ,and the cream heart in my latte.

You were the bubbles in my bath,and my shoulder to cry on. My shower that spattered ,but always got fixed.

You were my mattress to lie on,and pillow to imagine. My duvet of warmth and shelter of happiness.

You were the sweet to my sour , bliss to my bitter,hope to my work.

You were the bandages to my scars, and my stop with tears.

You were fresh wood in my newly built cabin,and clear glass reflecting on the outside.

You were my morning joy and air of solitude.

You were the light I never recognised and the darkness I barely encountered.

You were the spirit to my soul...

You were the interest in my heart...

You were the butterflies in my stomach...

You were the thought in my mind...

You were the best I could ask for and more...

You were...

...the love of my life.

But you left me.

You left me ,alone,hurt and heartbroken. Never once looking back,nor acknowledging my presence. Me,calling for you,voice cracked and tears flowing,high hopes and words of ignorance. You didn't look back.Not. Once.

I tried letting you go. I did. Countless nights wondering,thinking,pondering as to where I went wrong. 'What was my mistake? You know what??!? Forget about her!'

But I couldn't.

No matter how hard I tried.

I couldn't.

It hurt not waking up to your kisses and sweet voice. It hurt not having someone to hug. It hurt eating alone. It hurt walking on a midnight stroll, without your arms linked to mine. It hurt not remembering you. It hurt knowing you were now doing this with someone else.

It hurt...

But what hurt even more ,was that I couldn't forget about you. I couldn't abandon that passion I had for you. You lurked everywhere with me and always controlled my thoughts. It disgusted me, because I knew it was wrong.