Do what makes you happy

Chapter 6: I was never into any girl I ever dated

Miles POV:

I walked into the kitchen and my parents argued for a few seconds more before noticing me there.

"Dad.. Uhm can we talk for a second maybe?" He stared at me while my mom and I looked at him. He seemed kind of uncomfortable I even asked.

"I'm actually pretty busy right now, Miles. Maybe another time."

"Oh, yea alright. Another time then." I said and turned around. As I walked outta the kitchen I heard my mom say "Really Miles, now you're just not going to talk to your son?" Then I noticed footsteps getting louder and louder. She was walking towards me.

"Miles!" She said as she approached me. I turned around and she continued to talk. "I could really go for a cup of coffee. You up for going to the dot with me?"

I really didn't wanna go, but I was glad one of my parents were making an effort to not avoid me. It was obvious she was only doing this because of whats been going on. I can't remember the last time she ever asked me to do something like this. "Yea, sure" I said and a smile went across her face.

We got into her car and she began driving. "So," she began "you know your father and I love you no matter what right?" Here it was. I knew this is what would happen, pretty much the sole purpose of why we were even together right now. Even though it was obvious, I still wasn't really prepared for this.

"He sure has a way of showing it" I muttered just loud enough for her to hear.

"Look, honey" she said with a sigh "I get this. Being a teenager is hard enough let alone being one in the spotlight all the time. Are you sure this is what you want though? I mean really sure. Because if this is just a way of rebelling against your father for not being here as much as you'd like, I'm sure you could get his attention in a different way." So this is what she thought. I was doing this for attention. Of course it couldn't just be black and white with her, there had to be an ulterior motive.

"Mom," My tone was completely serious "I need you to hear me and understand me when I say this ok?"

"Ok"

"I am not attracted to girls what so ever. I've never been attracted to them nor will I ever be attracted to them."

She didn't answer immediately but I couldn't blame her. What I told her was I liked boys. What she heard was no biological grandchildren. No girlfriend to bond with over shopping and manicures. A complete change in the future she originally pictured for me. For her.

"You've dated plenty of girls though? I was sure you and Maya really had a connection." She sounded kinda of desperate to find a way to prove to me I wasn't really gay.

"I wanted to like Maya as more then a friend but I really couldn't do it" I admitted. "I kinda forced myself to think I liked her more then I really did. I was never into any girl I ever dated."

"So you aren't confused at all? You are 100% only into men?" How many times did I have to tell her this? Was she convinced if she kept asking at one point I'd change my answer?

"Have been for a while now, mom. Just never really acted on it until now."

We pulled up to the dot and got our coffee. We didn't want to drink it there so we got back into the car immediately after the purchase. She didn't have much to say on the ride home. We talked about how she still loved me no matter who I liked and even about Tristan for a minute. She asked how much I liked him and I informed her I've never felt a connection stronger then ours. Other then that silence was all that was heard.

When I got home, all I could think about was talking to Tris. I missed him so much already. It wasn't fair Frankie could hang out with Chewy as much as she'd like but I couldn't even text Tris. My dad was already disappointed in me for no reason so I decided to give him a reason. I left my house and headed for Tristan's.